Middle of Nowhere [On Hold: Until Dead on the Inside is Finished]

“Are you crazy?!”

“Serena, you can sing and you know it!”

Lucy, Lily, and I walked; more like ran, back to my room after rushing through the dinner line.

“Lucy, that isn’t the point. Jake could seriously humiliate me if he wanted. Don’t you think it would be better to stay off his radar?”

Lily started laughing hysterically.

Looking over at her, it still frightened me at how beautiful she was. With her blond hair, her skin radiant compared to how washed out it had been. It was hard to believe it was the same girl. Blond was definitely her color.

“Look, I stayed under his radar for the past three years and look at the bunch of good it got me.”

“Miss. Blondie has a point.”

“Speaking of Blondie, what made you change it back?” I ask at an attempt to change the subject.

Twirling a blonde lock around her index finger, “All your guys’ talk got me thinking. Do you like it?”

“I love it,” Lucy and I said in unison.

We all started giggling.

“Fine!” I said jumping off of my bed. “I’ll do the damn thing.”

The both flew off the bed, jumping and yaying.

“Wait, we can’t.” I said, with some relief.

They stopped jumping and gave blank stares.

“I don’t have a band, or a playlist.”

The oblivios look remained on Lily's face but disappeared from Lucy’s replaced by a toothy grin that told me she had a plan.

“Leave the band to me and we can decide on the playlist tomorrow.”

They grabbed their bags, throwing away their trash and with that,  I didn’t see or hear from them for the rest of the day.

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As I sat at my desk contemplating the reality of we were about to do, I decided that I should get the last of my homework done. We all had a week off of school. But we had to get all our homework in, from last week, before we were able to participate in the talent show.

So, here I am sitting down to write something that I would have loved to write a few days ago. But having to write a poem over a personal experience when I all I could think about was Jake and the break up. It was going to be hard to do, no doubt. But I knew that it had to be done.

 So, here goes nothing…

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The love we had was undeniable,
whatever we shared it was to be forever reliable.
But you walked away,
thinking it would be better someday

The pieces you broke me into,
were left for me to fix
The memories like a tattoo,
in my head they were playing tricks

Someday, when you look back
towards what we used to be
maybe you'll see,
what I used to see

I see your cracks now,
but you can't see mine
because I've started to see
that it gets better in time...

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I felt so relieved, it felt as if a huge weight was lifted off my chest—off my heart. Shutting my laptop I went and laid down and drifted into a dreamless, blissful sleep. Something I hadn’t had in the past few nights.

Note from Author:

                This was dedicated to [livewritelove] for her awesome work. She wrote this beautiful poem.  Give her mad props! Go visit her profile and see her other work, I’m sure you won’t be disappointed. :D

Thank you, Life! Thank you, EVERYONE.

P.S.

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