Thoughts

I’m sad

I’m mad

I’m depressed

I’m in pain

I’m lost

I’m hurt

I’m wounded

I’m angry

I’m so sad I wonder what it feels like to be happy

I’m so mad I forgot what it feels like to be at peace

I’m in so much pain I just wish I can cry out in agony and not be judged by it

I’m so depressed I have ran out of tears

I’m so lost I feel as though I’m blind

I’m so hurt my heart aches from all the heart breaks

I’m so wounded it’s beyond repair

I’m so angry I don’t want to forgive

All these things go through my head everyday

But after years of feeling this

I still don’t know how to fix them

Maybe I’ll never be able to but oh well

You see my smiles

My laughs

My so called ‘happiness’

But let me break the news to you

IT’S FAKE!!!!!!!!

Didn’t expect that hu?

But hey oh well

To bad

So sad

I smile and laugh in public

But when alone

I cry and cry and guess what else CRY!

I want to scream

Not yell scream

I want to run til I can’t breathe

Can’t move

Can’t think

I want to disappear

But only for a moment

That’s all

Is that so much to ask for

I don’t think so