My name is Lily. I am a cliché that tastes bitter on the tongue of many women. I am a mistress, the other woman... a marriage wrecker.
I sit at my dressing table, put my lipstick down, and study my reflection in the mirror. My large sapphire eyes, framed by the longest eyelashes, blink back at me. I smile, and straight, white teeth, smile back at me. I see a tiny nose, high cheek-bones and full lips gracing flawless skin. As I brush my long honey-blonde hair I trace a manicured finger around my dainty ears that sit flat against my head. Simple diamond studs glitter on my lobes.
One solitary tear escapes from my eye and I watch as it trickles down my face, forming a path through the make-up I have just applied. I cannot argue with what I see. I am attractive; beautiful even. I don’t feel that way, I feel ugly. Slamming down the brush I turn away from the mirror as repulsion washes over me. A multitude of tears course down my face, spoiling my make-up beyond repair as ugliness fills my mind.
I pull a cleansing wipe from its packet and scrub my tears and make-up away. My reflection now better suits the way I feel. Ridiculous black smudges circle my eyes; my flawless skin is tear stained and puffy and red lipstick bleeds in a ghoulish fashion around my mouth. I feel satisfied as I screw the mud coloured wipe into a ball and aim it at the wicker waste-paper basket in the corner of my room. I undress and slip into my cosy pajamas, a relief from the tight fussy basque now discarded by my feet.
I walk through to my study and flip my laptop open. As it connects to the internet I rush to my Facebook account. The same as every other day my account is swamped by eager male admirers’. They don’t see the ugliness I feel; when they look at my photographs. They see what I saw in the mirror, a vision of beauty, a perfect face and a perfect figure. I don’t look at their flattery, I aren’t interested in all their well-worn chat-up lines, I’ve lost track of the amount of times I’ve read the words, ‘heaven must be missing an angel’. The thought of such drivel nauseates me.
I type in the name ‘Ben Hall’. His profile appears on my screen. I scan the comments left by his angry, worried, devastated wife, ‘Sharna’. Her ranting sickens me. There must be a hundred pages of comments she has posted over the course of a month; probably the most miserable month of her existence. I read through from the beginning.
‘Ben, where are you? Why didn’t you come home last night? Please answer your phone.’ Underneath is a curt reply.
‘I’m not coming home. I don’t love you anymore. I’m with Lily now.’
The next ninety-nine pages are full of Sharna’s unanswered rants. As I read each one in order a little piece of ugliness that cocoons me falls away. I decide to have a glass of wine before I get engrossed in my favourite prose.
Ben is mine now Sharna, I think to myself as I look in on him on my way to the kitchen. He is sleeping, his hands and feet tied to the bedposts in kinky readiness for tonight. I feel butterflies dance in my stomach as I look at his handsome features. His toned, muscley torso ripples in time with his breathing. I continue towards the kitchen, passing room after room in this rambling mansion I reside in. Until my lottery win my humble residence was a one room bed-sit in a building groaning with mould and mildew, products of the damp that seeped through the walls. The kitchen I enter now is a world away from the shared kitchen in my other dwelling; a kitchen I had shared with thieves, drug addicts and cockroaches.
I shut the memory away as I open my enormous fridge and select a chilled bottle of white wine. I carry it back to my study, collecting a crystal-cut wine glass and today’s newspaper off the granite work-top as I pass. I twist the corkscrew deep into the cork and continue to read Sharna’s rambling words.
‘Ben, what have I done? Who is Lily?’
‘I am pregnant. I hope this changes things, hasn’t it always been our dearest wish to have a child?’
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Laura White
HorrorGhosts from the past haunt Laura every single day and every night. Even sleep does nothing to clear her troubled mind. She vows that someone will pay for her troubles, she just needs to figure out how.