True feelings

You're mad again at me, and u start calling me names like u always do.
Is it the anger that makes u say those things or are those your true feelings ?
U call me everything and u start cursing at me, am I that unwanted.
When we don't fight and we aren't mad your acting so nice to me, is that a act or are that your true feelings.

U say bad things to me, u make me feel worthless. U say I'm just like a curse, am I really that bad. So an annoying thing u can't stand.
U scream at me, and I lose my temper and scream at u also. But u always want to hit me. U say I make it worse for myself if I talk back, your right, that's why u want to hit me don't u.

Why am I like a burden to u ? Am I that annoying, that u call me a curse. Do u know how much it hurts to be called a burden and a curse.
One day u talk so caring, but then u turn into someone that doesn't seem to love. U say I'm just like him, u say he's not a bad person, then why are u bringing him down. And bringing me down as well.

I hate that feeling, feeling of not being wanted, feeling of being an annoyance to u, a feeling of being worthless, a feeling of being hated, a feeling of being called a curse.
It hurts so much to hear those words that u say, I know I'm not perfect but neither are u, so don't bring me down, don't break me.
If u don't love me, just don't act as if u do, act the way u truly feel, because I don't need fake feelings, I rather have those true feelings, so I know where I stand in your opinion of me. Knowing I'm not loved, hurts but what hurts more is u saying one day u love me and the other day that u don't. That feeling of hurt is deeper.
27-09-2009 ariesangel