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SATURDAY~~~~
I woke up and laid in bed thinking about the previous night. I loved hanging out with Cole in a sick awkward kinda way. I sat there and thought about everything he had done that could've hinted to a secret love for me. My thoughts were interupted when I had the sudden urge to pee.
After releiving my self I went and stood in the mirror staring at myself. My hair was a dirty blonde and hung limply to my shoudlers. My eyes were a dull blue and I had unfortunately inherited red cheeks from my father so it looked like I was constantly sunburned, or blushing. And on top of that I wasn't skinny, I had a couple extra pounds here and there and and a good sized ass. I watched my self in the mirror as I moved around trying to find ways to hold my body so I didn't look too unattractive. I sighed frustrated and started walking down stairs. I heard my mom talking to some one and the sound of little kids giggling. Then I remembered that the cub scouts were at my house, trying to earn the craft badge, my mom was there den mother. I walked in plastering on my fake smile.
"Morning honey," my mom said to me smiling warmly, while tucking a peice of her silver hair behind her ear. My mom had started greying at a young age but on her it was lovely. I gave her a thumbs up still too tired to talk and went and sat down next to Kaitlyn. Ah, kaitlyn, how that girl wished she was a boy, she came to cub scouts and no one cared cause she was so Funny! the phone rang and I ran into the t.v. room to check the caller I.d. (we screen our calls). Seeing that it was a cell phone number I ran into answer it, hoping it was one of my friends.
"Hello," I said cheerily into the phone.
"Um, Hey," a familiar voice said nervously into the phone. It was Cole. "Is Clarissa there?"I was baffled. Cole was calling to talk to me! He was calling to talk to me!!
"This is her," I answered feigning innocence, pretending like I didn't know who it was.
"Oh hey, this is Cole," Hearing his voice made me want to swoon. There was a awkward silence before he started again. "soooooo, whats the deal?"
I was giddy and so I answered with a giggle."Whats the deal with what?"
"Does Halsey like me or not?" My heart crumbled and was actring like liquid cement in my throat. I heard boys snickering in the back ground and was suddenly embarassed. How naive I had been to think he called to tell me he liked me.
"I don't know," I told him rudely.
"Are you sure," He pressured.
"If I knew I would tell you," That was a lie, I did know, Halsey liked him but not nearly as much as I did.
"Well then ByeClarissa, see you at school," He hung up sounding disappointed. I stood facing the wall silently crying as i felt the rejection sink in.
My mom's voice broke my concentration,"Is everything okay Clarissa?"
I turned toward her and started screaming at the top of my lungs, "He called to ask about her! Mom, He called about Halsey!" mom knew there was a small battle between me and Halsey about Cole. I looked at the Cubscouts who all looked horrified and Kaitlyn was trying to back out of the kitchen through the other exit. while I was backing out the other one screaming all the while about the phone conversation. My mom grabbed me and pulled me into a tight hug shhshing me while I sobbed loudly still ranting. when I had calmed my self down a bit I went into my room and cried my self to sleep. I fell asleep thinking to my self how I had never felt so ugly in my entire life.
I woke up around ten o'clock at night and walked down stairs into the living room to see my family sittling watching scrubs. They all looked at me(Mom, Dad, Emma, Becca), there was a look of concern on my father's face and ever one else looked fearful.
"What did we have for dinner," I whispered while looking at my feet. I felt like crying again.
"We had pizza there is some on the counter," My sister emma replied. I walked into the Kitchen and grabbed a slice. I caught a glimps of my reflection in the oven and gasped my mascara had run down face and because I had been laying on my side there was some on my nose too. I then let it out and started bawling again.
"I'm going back to sleep." I said crying. I went and laid on my bed and set my IPod on shuffle adn the first song that came on was make-up smeared eyes by automatic love letters:
Left your t-shirt in my room
Still smells of you
And the picture you hung on the door
Lay smashed, picture perfect
Explains now
I woke up and laid in bed thinking about the previous night. I loved hanging out with Cole in a sick awkward kinda way. I sat there and thought about everything he had done that could've hinted to a secret love for me. My thoughts were interupted when I had the sudden urge to pee.
After releiving my self I went and stood in the mirror staring at myself. My hair was a dirty blonde and hung limply to my shoudlers. My eyes were a dull blue and I had unfortunately inherited red cheeks from my father so it looked like I was constantly sunburned, or blushing. And on top of that I wasn't skinny, I had a couple extra pounds here and there and and a good sized ass. I watched my self in the mirror as I moved around trying to find ways to hold my body so I didn't look too unattractive. I sighed frustrated and started walking down stairs. I heard my mom talking to some one and the sound of little kids giggling. Then I remembered that the cub scouts were at my house, trying to earn the craft badge, my mom was there den mother. I walked in plastering on my fake smile.
"Morning honey," my mom said to me smiling warmly, while tucking a peice of her silver hair behind her ear. My mom had started greying at a young age but on her it was lovely. I gave her a thumbs up still too tired to talk and went and sat down next to Kaitlyn. Ah, kaitlyn, how that girl wished she was a boy, she came to cub scouts and no one cared cause she was so Funny! the phone rang and I ran into the t.v. room to check the caller I.d. (we screen our calls). Seeing that it was a cell phone number I ran into answer it, hoping it was one of my friends.
"Hello," I said cheerily into the phone.
"Um, Hey," a familiar voice said nervously into the phone. It was Cole. "Is Clarissa there?"I was baffled. Cole was calling to talk to me! He was calling to talk to me!!
"This is her," I answered feigning innocence, pretending like I didn't know who it was.
"Oh hey, this is Cole," Hearing his voice made me want to swoon. There was a awkward silence before he started again. "soooooo, whats the deal?"
I was giddy and so I answered with a giggle."Whats the deal with what?"
"Does Halsey like me or not?" My heart crumbled and was actring like liquid cement in my throat. I heard boys snickering in the back ground and was suddenly embarassed. How naive I had been to think he called to tell me he liked me.
"I don't know," I told him rudely.
"Are you sure," He pressured.
"If I knew I would tell you," That was a lie, I did know, Halsey liked him but not nearly as much as I did.
"Well then ByeClarissa, see you at school," He hung up sounding disappointed. I stood facing the wall silently crying as i felt the rejection sink in.
My mom's voice broke my concentration,"Is everything okay Clarissa?"
I turned toward her and started screaming at the top of my lungs, "He called to ask about her! Mom, He called about Halsey!" mom knew there was a small battle between me and Halsey about Cole. I looked at the Cubscouts who all looked horrified and Kaitlyn was trying to back out of the kitchen through the other exit. while I was backing out the other one screaming all the while about the phone conversation. My mom grabbed me and pulled me into a tight hug shhshing me while I sobbed loudly still ranting. when I had calmed my self down a bit I went into my room and cried my self to sleep. I fell asleep thinking to my self how I had never felt so ugly in my entire life.
I woke up around ten o'clock at night and walked down stairs into the living room to see my family sittling watching scrubs. They all looked at me(Mom, Dad, Emma, Becca), there was a look of concern on my father's face and ever one else looked fearful.
"What did we have for dinner," I whispered while looking at my feet. I felt like crying again.
"We had pizza there is some on the counter," My sister emma replied. I walked into the Kitchen and grabbed a slice. I caught a glimps of my reflection in the oven and gasped my mascara had run down face and because I had been laying on my side there was some on my nose too. I then let it out and started bawling again.
"I'm going back to sleep." I said crying. I went and laid on my bed and set my IPod on shuffle adn the first song that came on was make-up smeared eyes by automatic love letters:
Left your t-shirt in my room
Still smells of you
And the picture you hung on the door
Lay smashed, picture perfect
Explains now
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