Chasing Suicide (BXB)

Epilogue

Epilogue

-3 years later-

The last thing I remember about our relationship was that we were happy. Aster couldn't have been better and he talked much more than ever. We rarely had fights, but when we did it was over simple, stupid things.

I had left the clinic and took up a job at a different help center that treated people much better than the last one.

Aster had surprisingly managed to get a job too. He worked at a coffee shop down the road. We lived together still, and even though I had two rooms in my apartment, we still shared one. Of course my grandma was ecstatic when when she found out that we were a couple. She even forced Aster to take one of her vintage guitars to keep.

The last time we had been at the hospital was the time that Aster had tried to kill himself, during that time, the doctor had somehow found an old file with his birth information on it which revealed that his last name was Jameson.

We investigated and found out that his parents had apparently died in a car accident when he was an infant. Like mine had, except he couldn't remember it because he was too young. He had never really known them but I could tell that knowing what had happened was still upsetting to him.

After that, we hadn't been back to the hospital at all.

Mr Wilson, my old boss had still wanted to send him to a mental facility but to avoid that, Aster had admitted to having depression and took the medication for about 3 months until he was well and able to prove his mental stability.

After that, we were basically your average couple in love.

As time went by I realized that my life was just going through a continuous cycle with me and Aster. A cycle that I wanted to end. And I knew that it was time to do just that.

I had called him home early from work because I really needed to talk to him. The door had opened and the boy-- man that I had come to know so well, stepped in and walked over. He looked nice as always, with his tight black jeans and grey collared uniform shirt. His dark hair still hung slightly in his face but I was able to make out his eyes now.

He had a slightly worried, slightly curious expression on his face. He had always been harder to read than others but after knowing him for so long I learned a lot about his reactions to different situations.

"You needed something?" he stepped closer with his hands in his jeans while the door shut behind him on its own.

He was nervous, I could tell. I had never called him out from work before.

"Yeah I wanted to talk to you.." I let my voice trail off.

Aster sighed, "Is this about the cycle thing you were talking about earlier?"

"Kind of-"

He cut me off, "Jude.. We can do plenty of things to make our relationship better for you.. We can even travel if you want..."

We were standing right next to each other now. "I think you're getting the wrong idea babe." I brushed his cheek gently with my fingertips.

He eyed me, "what do you mean? Don't you want to break up..?"

My eyes widened, "No of course not, do you?"

He shook his head, "Then why all this talk about everything being in a continuous loop? I thought you didn't want that?"

I laughed and grabbed his two hands in mine, "I didn't mean that, I just meant that we're so close now, everything we do is basically in a cycle. Of course I love that cycle, I love you so why wouldn't I? I just thought.." I looked to the side pondering what I should say next.

"Thought what?"

"I don't know," I looked down nervously, "I just thought that maybe we should, y'know ..."

"I really don't know what you're talking about Jude." Aster stared at me like I was crazy, "We should what?"

I bit the inside of my mouth and then spoke, "Get married.." I said it in a low voice because of how nervous I was.

Aster's eyes went wide and he stood completely still. "What..."

I was a little taken back, I was almost positive that he would say yes. "I mean, if you don't want to we-"

He cut me off again, "What?! Of course I want to!" he jumped up into my arms and hugged me tight.

"Good." I laughed, in a relieved manner and then kissed the top of his head.

He leaned back a little and looked into my eyes, "But is this really how you're asking me?"

I thought for a moment, "Well... No I just wanted to be sure you would say yes." I didn't have a ring to give him yet, I was planning on getting it tonight.

Aster gave me a sly grin. I knew that he was inwardly laughing at my knowledge on how to do this stuff. He understood that I was never was a big fan of planning things out.

He leaned up to peck me on the lips but as he was pulling away I didn't let him escape. I kissed him back but this time I wrapped my arms around his neck.

He still tasted like cherries.

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