Not Alone Forever

I walked into the class room and all eyes turned on me. It had been a long and depressing summer, and now I was back to school. It was my sophomore year in high school. And I needed it to be a good year.

Earlier that morning.

I woke up from the smell of pancakes and bacon, not something that Iʼve smelled in a long time since the end of school last year. I got out of bed very slowly, kinda of sluggish like. I hadnʼt gotten a very good night sleep. I kept waking up in the middle of the night to the same dream. Itʼs not a scary dream, just one that brings back a lot of memories. Every time I wake up with a tear streaked face and a very big headache. I walked to the bathroom across the hall from my bedroom and looked at the young, tired and red streaks on her face from crying all night, 16 year old girl in the mirror. My green eyes were bloodshot and my brown hair looked like it hadnʼt been combed in a year. I looked like crap. I got ready for school only thinking of how I was coming back different, how everyone would be sympathetic for me, and saying "Iʼm sorry for your loss" and " Heʼs in a better place" and the worst one of all " Theres a lot more guys in the world than just him". I walked into my room and started looking at my bed, my desk, in my closet, all the of clothes on the floor, and the ripped up photos on my bedroom floor. I walked over to my night stand and grabbed my cell phone, purse, car keys and, my Ipod. I went down stairs and set all of my stuff by the door then I went into the kitchen. I sat down at the table and in front of me was two pancakes stacked on top of each other with with a slice of butter on the top pancake and some syrup. I wasnʼt really hungry but my mom had woken up early to make breakfast for me and I didnʼt want tohurt her feelings by not eating it. I cut a little piece of the pancake off and lifted the fork into my mouth. The taste of syrup and butter was better than I thought it was going to taste. I was glad that mom had made me breakfast. After I was finished with eating I put my dishes into the dishwasher then I gave my mother a hug and told I would see her after school.I grabbed my stuff and walked out the door, closing it behind me. I got into my 2009 Subaru. I drive slow because I was going to be early and I needed some time to get my head and thoughts straightened out. I drive into the school parking lot. I parked on the far side of the parking lot.

I walked into the school and instantly felt all eyes on me. I felt my face go red and a lump rise in my throat.I walked with my head down, until I got to my homeroom. I went into the classroom and all eyes were turned on me. I went and sat down in my seat, with my head still down. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a girl lean over to me.

"Iʼm so sorry for your loss, If it makes you feel any better, I lost my dad to cancer last year." She said to me with a sympathetic voice.

"Thanks, and Iʼm sorry for your loss." I said to her with a sincere smile.

"Thanks oh, my name is Payson Faye." She told me with a happy smile.

"Iʼm Alexa Martian." I told her.

The teacher clapped her hands making me jump a little. Payton had strawberry blonde hair and blue eyes. She was skinny and pretty. I look down at the diamond ring on my right hand, and then the memories came back to me like they had happened yesterday.

The rest of the day went okay. I ate lunch with Payson and her friends. There was one girl with brunette hair and purple eyes, I had never seen purple eyes before. I think that her name was Kelsey. The other two were twin girls and they had blonde hair and brown eyes, there names were Shelby and Erin. All in all it was a good first day of school.

I went outside and I got into my car. I went to back out of my parking spot and I wasn't paying attention to what was happening around me and my car got hit from someone pulling in. I hit my head off of the steering wheel really hard.The last thing I remember was being pulled out of my car, then I was being put I in the back of the ambulance, next I was sitting in a uncomfortable hospital bed and my head was bandaged up and my hand was in a pink cast.