Will You Stay Away Forever? (Synyster Gates) ~Book 2~

Will You Stay Away Forever? 2

“Are you cold?” She looked at me as we made our way to the park.

“It’s fine.” I lied, I was fucking freezing.

“You’ll get used to it.” She caressed my shoulder, making me shudder.

“Synyster Gates in Norway, how about that?” She grinned while we sat down on a bench in the green park.

Being there with her and the kid, it looked like we were a family.

I sadly watched her sit the baby down and give him a toy.

The fresh, cold air pierced my nostrils, making me sigh heavily.

“Chloe I-“ I stuttered, preparing to deliver the grave news.

“I have something to share with you.” I said to her.

She noticed the grief in my voice, “Brian, is everything ok?” Chloe asked worriedly.

“It’s…It’s Jimmy.” I couldn’t do it, I was suffocating on my words.

Her expression dropped, “Brian? Brian, what’s wrong?” She demanded an answer.

“He-He’s gone, Chloe.” I sighed, it hurt like hell.

“What?” She gasped and I immediately noticed the tears well up in her eyes, “No!” She called.

“Oh my god!” Her voice cracked and the tears streamed down her beautiful face.

It was breaking my already shattered heart.

“When?” She tried wiping the tears away.

“A few months.” I said heavily.

“Why didn’t anyone tell me?!” She cried, “I should have been there! I should have said goodbye-“ She cried harder, panicking.

I couldn’t pretend or lie but how could I possibly tell her that I didn’t want her to know? That I didn’t want her there?

How could I confess to the fact that I was a selfish bastard and asked the guys not to speak to her? Because seeing her and losing my brother would have been too much for me to handle.

“Chloe,” I dared to pull her into my arms.

It felt like heaven. Her smell enveloped me while her warm body clung to mine.

 “It was all so sudden I-“ I gasped, not knowing what to say.

I looked at her cry, feeling absolutely helpless.

The sorrow in her eyes was killing me, I hated to see her sad.

I wanted her to smile forever.

I hope the dude she’s with is keeping her damn happy.

“Why?” She sniffed.

“It’s not clear,” I explained sadly, “He had some medical issues and he was depressed and-“ I mumbled.

“Too young to die.” I sighed as she clenched my shirt.

“And too wild to live,” She smiled weakly.

I knew how fond of her Jimmy was, and how she loved him back.

Maybe I should have handled things differently.

Adrian must have sensed that something was wrong because he cried out loud.

Chloe quickly detached herself from me and kneeled in front of the baby, “Honey!” She kissed his cheek, trying to calm him down.