I can’t tell
What’s worse
Being awake
Or asleep
Because with both
I seem to wake up
From the nightmares
Screaming
Casey had given me this other guy’s number in place of Mark’s. She told me she was sorry and that this guy would be good friend and will treat me right. She said he would most definitely like me and this would be the best way to get over Mark. His name was Jeff. He was tall with blond hair and blue eyes, he wasn’t the most attractive guy, but he was cute. That night we talked on the phone, basically about everything. I learned about him and his background and his family. He was a grade older than me and he lived across the state from me. I told him about myself and what had happened with Casey and Mark and he explained how he never liked Mark, even though Casey was his best friend and she was in love with the guy. I fell asleep talking to him, and I woke up to some, very ‘special’ pictures from him. He had asked for returns but I refused.
I then went on Facebook and went to Jake’s profile. I wanted to see what he had been up to, just to find out he has been dating this girl since the beginning of March. Right when he left. Her name was Paula. I have heard him talk about her before, but to relate to her as his sister. He said he could never think of her anything more than a friend, but I guess he lied. After one promise is broken, the 1000 others are too. Ugh. I was pissed and I wanted to text him, but I didn’t. I swallowed my anger and texted Jeff, hoping he would make my mood better, I texted Gavin as well.
Gavin and I were still talking a lot, close to everyday. Besides the days he spent with Scarlet, I never heard from him then. It was somewhat disappointing but oh well. In study hall at school I’d text him, because he was always texting in school. He’d talk to me about his nights with Scarlet and go on about how perfect my body was and what he’d do to me. All the normal things he’d tell me.
Jeff and I, on the other hand, ended up both liking each other, every night we spent talking on the phone. We’d talk for hours on end. About anything really, it was random stuff. I’d help him with his family problems he had and get him through hard times as he done the same for me. We were practically a couple, only problem keeping us apart was that we had never met and the distance between us. It has tough, but what we had I was okay with, for now at least.
It was Thursday and the next day after school, Julia and I were going to a camp to do community service hours and just to help start renovating the camp for the summer. We were at school discussing how much fun it will be, especially since out friend Katie was coming with us, she was 2 years older than us. Us three were going to have a good time together, while we were working. Before we knew it, it was Friday afternoon and we were on the bus going to Julia’s house.
As we pulled out of the school, I got a text from a random number it a different language. I put question marks and sent them ‘Lmao this is Gavin’s friend Ricky, that means fuck you bitch in Latin.’
‘Oh, well thanks-_-‘
‘Sorry, Gavin told me to send it.’
‘Mhm, so wanna be friends’
‘Why not?’
Wrong answer Addie.
