Chapter 18: Homecoming

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Jessica's POV

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" I'll be there for dinner. Gusto ko lagyan mo ng sili na marami ha." lambing ko kay Nanay Lucy.

Umungot kasi siya na doon daw ako mag dinner sa bahay. Bihira na kasi akong umuwi simula noong kumuha ako ng unit malapit sa main branch ng flower shop na binuksan ko.

Nakangiti kong ibinaba ang telepono. Namimiss ko na ang lutong bahay ni Nanay Lucy. Lalo na ang Bicol express. Kundi puro take out na pagkain eh sa fast food ako madalas pulutin. Wala kasi akong time magluto. I've been busy these past few months. Pinagmasdan ko ang shop. Ito ang pinakamalaki sa lahat ng branch. This is the main. At dito ako nakabased.

It's been almost 3 years since I moved back here. Yes, nasa Pilipinas na ulit ako. Home sweet home sabi ng iba. Pero hindi ito ang naramdaman ko nung dumating ako. Balot ang puso ko ng takot at kaba. Sa mga pwedeng mangyari at sa magiging buhay ko. Kung paano ko ito haharapin.

At matagal kong pinag isipan kong babalik ba ako o hindi. I was having second thoughts up to the last minute. However I still deciced to leave US. I focused on other things. Isa sa mga agenda ko ay ang flower shop. I opened another branch here. This main branch ang una kong itinayo. At isa ito sa pinakamalaking flower shop sa bansa. At nagkaroon pa ng mga siyam na branches. These kept me busy for a while. I let my assistant Tessa to manage the shop in New Jersey. I visit once in a while. Sa tulong na rin ni Jim at ng grilfriend niya they maintain the shop. Bahala na sila dun.

And what made me dedcide to go back?

I decided to go back after I saw Ambrose in New Jersey. Hindi ako mapakali pagkatapos nun. I wanna do things one at a time. One, I want to avoid to bump into him again. Who knows baka dun nga siya nakatira sa area. Ayoko ng magpakita sa kanya. Ayoko ng magkaroon pa ng connection sa kanya. Ayokong makita ang expression ng mukha niya pag nakita niya ako. Kung galit ba siya o hindi na. Isa lang ang alam ko. Gusto ko na siyang kalimutan. At since I'm sure na settled na siya sa US kaya I decided to settle here for good. Balik Pinas naman ako.

Second, gusto kong magsimula ulit. Dito sa Piplipinas. Haharapin ko ang mga bagay na magpapa alala sa kanya. I want to move on. And I belived that in moving on para kalimutan mo ang isang tao, you don't have to face that particular person. Para sa akin. Dapat ko na itong iwasan. At dapat ko ng alisin sa buhay ko lahat ng magpapapalala sa kanya. My room which used to be our room. The places we used to go to. The people we used to be with. Lahat ng mga yun kailangan kong harapin. Pero hindi siya. Ayoko na siyang makita pa.

For the past few months, syempre mahirap. The pain was still there. The agony of the past still hunted me. I thought I was about to lose my grip again. But Ian was always there for me. He helped me. He did not give up on me. Kaya nagpurisigi akong kalimutan si Ambrose. I'm doing this for Ian. For us. At masaya na ako. Alam ko na masaya na rin siya sa buhay niya.

I had to get rid of the things that will remind me of him. All his pictures. Our pictures. The things he gave me. Everything. I put them all in one box. Including our wedding pictures. Even my wedding ring. I shed tears again that time. Because I believe in the sanctity of marriage. That women had to be married only once. Pero ganun talaga. Sometimes life sucks. And that was my life. Wala akong magagawa. 

t gumaan ang pakiramdam ko matapos akong umiyak. These were just memories. Of the good times. They were part of me. Of what I was and what I am now. But I had to let them go. Kahit labag sa loob ko.

I never thought I would fall for another guy again. How he made so happy. How he treated me like a queen. At wala akong pinag sisisihan na binigyan ko siya ng chance. But I did not move with him. It's better this way. May sarili pa rin kaming privacy. He came to visit me once in while. At masaya kami. Pumayag naman siya sa arrangement namin.

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