Without you

State of shock written on my face
Tears streaming like a river
So much I might flood this place
Staring into dead eyes open
Not recognising this person
The person iv known my entire life
Yet im looking at his face
And nothing is in its correct place

I’m trying hard to think of old times
Reason behind this constant cry
I just cant picture him alive
Im pretty sure seeing his body
Only makes things worse
Im pretty sure my memories
Are now cursed

As I say my goodbyes
And kiss a cold hard shell
A memory all of a sudden fell
I see your full blushed face
And a smile full of grace
Bright life filled eyes
Chuckling at my childish lies

So ill give you one more kiss
With my eyes closed tight
So my memory is the only thing in sight
And tell you how much I miss you
Convince your soul that I will make it through
With out you.