BALLOONS ***

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BALLOONS

BY

ELIZABETH BIBESCO

_Author of "I Have Only Myself to Blame," etc._

NEW YORK

GEORGE H. DORAN COMPANY

_1922_

PRINTED IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA

CONTENTS

PAGE I HAVEN 9 _To Clarence Day, Jr._

II TWO PARIS EPISODES 21 _To Anthony Asquith_ I: THE STORY OF A COAT II: BALLOONS

III COURTSHIP 27

IV "DO YOU REMEMBER...?" 29 _To Leslie Hartley_

V THE MARTYR 37 _To H.G. Wells_

VI A MOTOR 53 _To Alice Longworth_

VII THE MASTERPIECE 60 _To Harold Child_

VIII TEA TIME 67 _To Sylvester Gates_

IX THE END 78

X MISUNDERSTOOD 83 _To John Maynard Keynes_

XI COUNTERPOINT 92 _To the Marchese Giovanni Visconti Venosta_

XII VILLEGIATURA 102 _To Marcel Proust_

XIII AULD LANG SYNE 132 _To Harold Nicolson_

XIV TWO TAXI DRIVES 147 _To Paul Morand_ I: SUNSHINE II: LAMPS

XV A TOUCH OF SPRING 155 _To W.Y. Turner_

XVI FIDO AND PONTO 161

BALLOONS

I

HAVEN

[_To CLARENCE DAY, JR._]

"You should only," we are told, "wear white in early youth and old age. It is very becoming with a fresh complexion or white hair. When you no longer feel as young as you were, other colours are more flattering. Also, you should avoid bright lights and worry."

Here, the beauty specialist reminds you of the specialist who says in winter, "Avoid wet feet and germs." In spite of both, we are still subjected to sunshine and anxiety and rain and microbes.

But there are risks which the would-be young can and should avoid. Surely Miss Wilcox ought to have known better than to flop down on the grass with an effort and a bump, clasping (with some difficulty) her knees because Vera, who is sixteen, slim and lithe, with the gawky grace of a young colt, had made such an obvious success of the operation!

It is better not to sit on the grass after thirty when sprawling at all is difficult, let alone sprawling gracefully.

Poor Miss Wilcox! At seventeen she had been a pretty, bouncing girl with bright blue eyes, bright pink cheeks and brighter yellow hair. All the young men of the neighbourhood had kissed her in conservatories or bushes and to each in turn, she had answered, "Well, I never!"

Then an era of intellectual indifference to the world set in. She read Milton in a garret and ate very little. When addressed, she gave the impression of being suddenly dragged down from some sublime pinnacle of thought. This was the period of absent-mindedness, of untidiness, of unpunctuality, for she was convinced that these three ingredients compose the spiritual life. But it was not a success. True, her cheeks lost their roses, but without attaining an interesting transparent whiteness and her figure became angular, rather than thin. Cold food, ugly clothes and enforced isolation began to lose their charms and Miss Wilcox abandoned the intellectual life.

She discovered that men were her only interest--probably she had always known it. Even the curate, who was like a curate on the stage, was glorified into an adventurous possibility from the mere fact that he belonged to that strange, tropical species--the other sex.

Unfortunately, Miss Wilcox, who was practical and orderly, knew just "what men liked in a woman." It was, it appeared, necessary to be bright--relentlessly bright, with a determined, irrelevant cheerfulness which no considerations of appropriateness could check and it was necessary to have "something to say for yourself" which in Miss Wilcox's hands, meant a series of pert tu quoques of the "you're another" variety. Her two other axioms, "Don't let them see that you care for them" and "feed the beasts," were alas! never put to the test as no man had ever considered the possibility of being loved by Miss Wilcox and the feeding stage had, in consequence, never been reached.

Nevertheless, in defence of her theses, Miss Wilcox was rough-toughed in public, while in private, she studied recipes and articles on cooking. As hope gradually began to give way to experience, Miss Wilcox came to the conclusion that she frightened men off. They regarded her, she imagined, as cold and indifferent and unapproachable. "I don't cheapen myself," she would say, forgetting her conservatory days. In her heart of hearts, she imagined herself in humble surrender, laying her strong personality at the feet of a still stronger one and being gently lifted up on to a pedestal. It was curious, she thought, that her wonderful, unique gift of tenderness should go unperceived. But