The next morning I woke up feeling nothing but dread. As of today I would be forced to go back to that awful place full of nothing but gossipers hounding news to quench the thirst of their ears at the expense of others, namely me. I sighed as I got up and shut off my alarm then nudge Jayden to get up.
"Come on, you promised you would still have enough to get up early." I mumbled as I continued nudging him. He had gotten his way last night.
He held my hands in his but didn't get up. "I do, really, I'm just waiting for one big burst to get up you know."
I rolled my eyes. "Sure."
Pulling out of his grip I left the room and went to ensure Matt was up before getting Emi. I stuck my head inside. "Matt, get up, school officially starts, can't be late for your first day of high school." I watched him spring from his closest.
"I am up, I've been up for two hours now waiting on everyone else." He said as he pulled on a shirt and hurried over to his mirror. Poor kid, he was actually excited about going to my school. If only he knew how much of a living hell it could be. What he failed to see was that High school was totally different from Junior High, the kids there were alot meaner and, in many cases, scarier. "So what time are we leaving because you know I don't want to be late and stuff. I have to start working on my rep."
I shook my head. "Whatever, we're leaving in 45 mins. Do try to be ready on time." I said sarcastically.
"Yeah yeah." He said brushing me off as he began looking at every inch of his face. I turned to walk away. "Hey Kai. . ."
"Do you think that mom would have looked proud if she could see me going to high school today?" I felt myself curl up on the inside. It was times like this that reminded me that unlike me Matt actually loved mom and she actually loved him. It must have been hard for him to pull the trigger but I guess it must have been harder dealing with the after effects and knowing that he'd never see her again.
"Yeah . . .she would have smiled and made a joke about you wooing all the girls in one day."
"You think so?"
I nodded with a forced smile then walked off. I never felt comfortable talking to him about mom. He always looked as if he were about to cry and that just made me feel worst; especially since it was my fault. If I hadn't tried killing myself when mom was around she wouldn't have gotten fed up and tried killing me herself then Matt wouldn't have had to kill her. My God my life was messed up.
I walked into Emi's room and found her curled up on top of her covers. Aw . . .
I really should have woken her but she seemed so at peace. Still I had to because I had school and so did she. I picked her up and she began whining.
"No mommy . . .sleeep . . ."
"No Emi school."
"No school mommy sleeptime." She said with a yawn before turning her head away from me and falling asleep on my shoulder. I put her to stand and she began mumbling. Well atleast she was sorta awake. We walked down to the kitchen because I figured I would feed her before her bath seeing as how after her bath she preferred jumping into uniform . . .or was that just a first day of school thing . . .? Hm . . .
"What will you two be having?" Jayden's cook asked.
"Um, some toast for me and maybe three pancakes for her." She nodded then got straight to it. "So Emi you ready for school?" She frowned and shook her head. "Aw why not?"
"I don't like it, wanna stay with you. . ." She said as she spun herself around on the swinging stool she sat on. I watched her spin idly but before I could finish grilling her Jonie walked in. She walked over to the kitchen window and began looking through it as if she lost something. "Um . . .Jonie . .. "
"You can see directly into Shyla's house from her . . .I need a better vantage point though . . ."
"Alright who let it in and why?" Jayden asked as he leaned against the archway leading to the kitchen.
"Well good morning to you too." Jonie said distractedly as she continue looking out. By now they had stopped being affected by what each other said which was both a blessing and a curse.
"Jonie are you aware that they can take you to court for what you're doing. It's an invasion of privacy."
Jonie flashed around. "No, this is an invasion of privacy!" She held out a small device that looked like a bug. "I found this in Joey's room. The idiots must have gotten our rooms confused."