The moment I saw Charlie cry was my undoing. Yes, Ive seen her cry, for another reason and never did i wish it to be me. My heart was crushed inside my chest while watching her shed tears. And I just stood her gripping her arms tight and hurting her. What kind of animal am I?
"I hate you, Ram." she said as she sob uncontrollably.
Agad kong nabitawan ang braso nya. Pakiramdam ko, dinibdiban ako. I dont want her to hate me, ganun na ba kalalim ang extent ng sugat na nagawa ko sa kanya? Oo nagtataka ko kung bakit ganito ang reaksyon nya. Akala ko ba si Jareth ang mahal nya? I saw her sending iloveyoutoos to her bestfriend. But why is she so mad at me for leaving her? Mahal din kaya nya ko? Even just a fraction of what I feel for her would be enough. That would in fact be more than enough for me, kahit katiting na pagmamahal lang nya, masaya na ko.
"Forever ko na lang ba malalaman na kung sino sino ang kinakama mo? Na may kapalit na ko agad sa buhay mo? Ano ba ko sayo Ram? Part time lover? Part time bed warmer? Ang sakit sakit naman.. Kase para sakin, youre more than that. Youre more than just that!" it was hard to stare at her accusing eyes, painful even but I couldnt look away.
I pulled her against me. "Im sorry kung pinaramdam ko sayo yun.. But what we had was never a part time or temporary thing for me. You should know that.. I told you, i only want you, and only you, Char.. How can you not believe that?" i can see she was crying harder now, her shoulders were shaking against my arms. "Shh, stop crying please?"
"I saw you in national television with my sister on your arms, Ram! i saw you kissing that chic in the coffee shop! How do you suppose i would make of that?!"
"Cassie and I are not together! Sinundan nya ko sa Ohio!" she wriggled out of my arms but i tightened them around me. "Please, please Charlie, listen to me!"
"Im not lying!" i said. "And I did not kiss Ava, she's Caleb's cousin! I dont even know why she kissed me!"
"Tama na! Ayoko nang maniwala sa mga kasinungalingan mo!" she cried. "Nasaktan na ko sa ginawa mong pangiiwan sakin, hindi na ko papayag na saktan mo ulit ako!"
I rubbed her back to ease her crying. God! My chest tightened and it became harder for me to breath. How can I do this to her? How can I hurt her like this when all I did was love her? Bakit nasasaktan sya ng ganito? I cant take this!
"Bitawan mo ko, Ram." she said in between sobs.
"Ayoko, Charlie, i wont let you go." naramdaman ko ang pagpiksi nya pero mas lalo ko lang hinigpitan ang yakap sa kanya. Kahit sa ganitong pamamaraan man lang, mabawasan ko ang sakit na nararamdaman nya.
"Ram, please.." patuloy ang pagpiksi nya.
I didnt know what came to me at that time, i just grabbed her nape and lowered my lips to her. I almost cried the moment our lips touched. God! I missed her! I missed her lips, her touch, her sarcasm, her angst, her razor sharp tongue, her wits. Everything about her. At first, she was not responding but she wasnt pushing me away either. I traced my tongue on her lower lips coaxing her to open it and give me entrance. She didnt fail me.
We shared that heart warming kiss in the middle of Scor's office. It was hot, scorching and at the same time passionate. Jesus, how can she not be for me? It says in this kiss that we own each other that we are perfect for each other. Nanikip nanaman ang dibdib ko.
After a few seconds ay tinulak na nya ko at nagmamadaling naupo sa pinakagilid ng couch. She brought her knees to her chest and wrapped her arms around it in fetal position. She was facing the other way but you can see that she's crying again. Parang nadudurog ang puso ko, i cant stand this. I cant watch her like this
"Why?" i asked her. Bakas sa tinig ko ang hinanakit. Hindi ba nya naramdaman? I love her and I will do just about everything para mapatawad nya ko.
|Chris Evans||as Aramis Sobrevega|
|Minka Kelly||as Charlize Rose Tuazon|
|Ryan Reynolds||as Jareth james Aragon|
|Kim Kardashian||as Cassandra Tuazon|