Hi. My name is Samara Shaine Sanders. Mom and Dad picked those names for me. Mom chose Samara cause it means 'guarded by God' and dad chose Shaine which means 'beautiful'. I know, I have such cool meanings for my name. And I am really proud of it.
I am now 14. And eveything is such a headache to me. School, homework, chores, and PARENTS. I'm not really a good daughter. But I am a heartful listener. I don't really get to be a good girl to my parents' eyes but I follow their every rule.
It's just that I hate it when they come and just treat me like a baby! I'm old enough to do things and discover them on my own. I appreciate their concern for me but I'd rather like it when they would let me be own my hold.
One time, I got all mad at mom for humiliating me in front of my friends in school. I was like 'heated up in flames'. And I told my mother to stop embarrassing me. She had her face in confusion and I got irritated. So I shouted at her saying horrible things that probably have hurt her so much. Not to mention, my friends were listening and looking. We really had a mother-to-daughter scene back there. So I told her that we should go home and settle it there.
While mom was driving, it was silent. There was no chance for a new argument at that moment. I really didn't want to talk to her. So I just sat there keeping my mouths shut while staring at the setting.
We arrived in the house but still silence crept the whole place. And I went straight to my room locking it to avoid any conversation with her. I didn't come out. I didn't even took my dinner. I'm not in the mood to eat. I had such a bad day.
I just lied dow on my bed thinking everything about what happened that day. Mom embarrassing me in front of my friends, then me shouting back at her. Mentioning everything about what I hated about her. Then there, I realized. I have hurt her so much. I am a terrible daughter. What have I done? I made a mess of me and my mom's relationship.
I kept on regretting everything until I didn't notice I fell asleep...
Early in the morning, around 4:00 i think, I woke up. I unlocked the door and opened it. I went out to the living room where I saw mom sleeping in the couch. She was holding an envelope with a red seal. Was she writing the whole night there until she fast asleep? What was it for?
Dad came down from the stairs. And told me everything.
Dad: Well, your mom told me about how bad she felt yesterday about your argument.
I just bit my lip. I'm really guilty. I feel so sorry for her.
Dad: Samara, you just have to understand grown-up for such things ok? Someday you'll know why we're doing this to you. Being over-protected and concern.
I nodded and felt ashamed.
Dad: Your mom and I made a letter for you last night here in the lounge. Well, I was already drowsy. So I told your mom that I would go ahead. She agreed. And I think she made the rest of it the whole night causing her to sleep in the couch. Well fortunately I woke up in the middle of the night. I saw her all tired restled there and I can't wake her up. So I just grabbed a blanket and put it on her.
Gee.. Dad! You are now making me feel really at fault for everything! (that was just a thought)
Dad: Go on and wake your mom.
Me: Won't she get mad at me when she'd woke up?
Dad: Of course not. Now just rouse her.
I woke mom and she saw me sitting beside her on the couch.
Mom: Oh hey there baby. I'm sorry I overslept. Oh! Are you hungry? Wait for a couple of minutes and breakfast will be ready.
I had nothing to say. I can't believe mom was still worried for me. I was expecting for her to make some judgements.
Dad: Uhm, won't you give the letter now? Just let it stay to her.
Mom: Oh yeah I forgot.
She took the letter and handed it to me.
Mom: Here. Take it. Don't open it til you're in the age of parenthood.
I got confuse.
Dad came close to us.
Dad: Well if you read it now as a teenager, you may not be able to understand it. Ok? Keep it somewhere where you'll always remember and find it. So that you won't forget to open it when it's time.
Me: Sure thing dad.
|Samara Shaine Sanders||as herself|
|Mrs. Sophia Sapphire Sanders||as Samara's mom|
|Mr. Andrew Colin Sanders||as Samara's dad|
|Zenia||as Samara's daughter|
|Carson||as Samara's son|