I feel so empty inside
All I do is cry
I ask myself how long is this going to last.
But the response I get is a sniff and more tears
Am I the only person who seems so sad?
I want to burry myself somewhere where people can't find me
I want to sleep and never wake up
But I know that isn't the solution
I need to fight
Life is hard
But it's even harder when I am alone
No one understands me
I want to forget it all
Erase it from my mind
I want to be happy
But happiness doesn't last
I cry more
How much tears can a person cry?
How much sorrow can a person's heart hold before it explodes?
I stare up into the dark sky filled with sparkly stars
I wish my life was so simple
But I know that can never happen
I imagine everyone else having fun pretending and living on with their 'perfect' lives while I sit here and cry about mine
Crying won't help
But I can't stop
It keeps on coming
People get angry why I hide from them all of this.
If I smile and pretend there's nothing wrong, they get angry why I am hiding things away from them.
And if they see me sad, they get angry and say why am I always sad and not happy
Even if I tell them
Why should they care?
They will wish I never told them about my misery
They can't help me
No one can
No one at all
Opening up to someone won't help
I stare hopelessly into the sky and wonder how long I can stand any of this
I listen to sad music as it is the only thing that I can stand
Slow, sad
Music fills my mind
The cool breeze hits my face
I wipe away my tears
I can't stand it anymore
I stand up determined
And look at the city lights below
I think this hill is high enough
I can't take it anymore
I take a breath
And don't bother to make silent goodbyes to no one.
I step off the hill side
And close my eyes as I fall
Anything must be better than what I go through, I tell myself
And that's when everything goes black.