Chapter Seven

It is true what they say, you never know what you should expect from life. There are times in which it seems as if you are hanging from a cliff and you are about to fall, deep down in to nothingness, there are also times in which you feel as if you are floating in a place where no harm and no person can reach you. And then there is what I call the center, where I situate myself right now, I'm neither falling nor flying. I have my feet well planted on the ground, waiting for whatever life will through at me....


I stared wide eyed at the drawing of Brayden in front of me. It all made sense now the vision had, had in which I talked to him out of the blue suddenly clicked in my mind. Brayden Medicci was there the day the prophecy was ever heard, he was in the spiral room and was witness of how the powers from the three moons were transferred into the pendant now hanging from my neck.

"Alisa, you heard?"
I turned my head in order to look at Mandy, "Sorry what were you saying?"
She laughed softly at me expression, "My mom is here, I'm off. See you tomorrow." She waved and walked down the stairs to the front door.
"Bye." I murmured to myself than to anyone else.
I moved slowly to the window and saw, as Mandy's car became no longer visible as it drove down the street.

*

You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.
"Yeah." I sighed, "how very true." I folded the edge of the book and placed it on the table.
I was sitting in the kitchen taking small sips of my orange juice waiting for Noelle in order to talk to her. I wasn't sure if I should tell her about the visions I had had recently, how would she react? She would probably start thinking of other possible ways of deactivating the necklace... but everyone knows that, that is impossible.
There was as well the concern of Brayden Medicci, to whom just as in the vision, I had to talk to. Great on how simple my life can turn out to be, can't it? Yeah, that was sarcastic.
I sighed again and walked towards the front door. "What's with all the sighing?" Noelle's voice asked right from behind me. She was sitting on the table looking at the quote I had just marked.
"Nothing, I'm fine." To my surprise I managed a smile that seemed convincing enough, but I knew she wasn't fooled.
"Are you going to the dance this Saturday?" she looked at me kindly, but eagerly also, as if she really did want me to go.
I shook my head, "No, I'm planning on visiting the doctor this Saturday, and later on..." my voice trailed of. I looked down at my entwined hands not wanting to meet Noelle's gaze.
"Alisa." Her voice sounded empathetic, "you know you can't keep doing this, you'll have to let him go sooner or later."
I cringed as she tried to reach for my hands, "I can't do that Noelle not when it was my fault."
"Alisa, nothing that happened that night was your fault, it was meant to happen."
At this I began to feel annoyed, "Meant to happen? Thanks, that makes me feel so much better." I said grudgingly.
"No Alisa-" I cut her off.
"Noelle can't you just understand one thing? Try to see this from my perspective all right? Nathan shouldn't have been there that night, he shouldn't have blocked me from them. How do you think that it makes me feel having to wear the cause of his death all the time? How do you think that it makes me feel to know that those who killed him are still there, outside, somewhere! And I'm just too insignificant to do anything! I should have been able to help Nathan Noelle! But what hurts me the most is that, he's not here anymore with me... and I'm just beginning to realize on how important he was." I turned for the knob and opened the door carefully. Just as I was about to walk into the street Noelle's faint voice echoed through my ears.
"Just remember Alisa, that when you imprison yourself in the past, you are preventing yourself from moving towards the future. I'm still waiting for you to forgive yourself... I'm still waiting."
Her voice sent a shiver down my spine I turned around in order to see her again but she was already gone.

The school wasn't opened yet when I arrived; there were a few cars parked randomly along the parking lot where people sat comfortably on the ground talking with each other.
The wind blew my hair as I opened the window; I parked the car in my usual place in front of the school building looking at the teachers as they walked quickly opening and closing the main door as they entered.