My idea of love is not everyone's ideal. Some have broken under the strain of it. This
one's for Jon, who sees love not as a burden, but as a gift.
Chapter 1
It was half past dawn when the phone rang. It shattered the first dream of the night into a
thousand pieces so that I couldn't even remember what the dream had been about. I woke gasping
and confused, asleep just long enough to feel worse but not rested.
Nathaniel groaned beside me, mumbling, "What time is it?"
Micah's voice came from the other side of the bed, his voice low and growling, thick with
sleep. "Early."
I tried to sit up, sandwiched between the two of them where I always slept, but I was
trapped. Trapped in the sheets, one arm tangled in Nathaniel's hair. He usually braided it for bed,
but last night we'd all gotten in late, even by our standards, and we'd just fallen into bed as soon
as we could manage it.
"I'm trapped," I said, trying to extract my hand from his hair without hurting him or
tangling worse. His hair was thick and fell to his ankles; there was lots of it to tangle.
"Let the machine pick up," Micah said. He'd raised up on his elbows enough to see the
clock. "We've had less than an hour of sleep." His hair was a mass of tousled curls around his
face and shoulders. His face was dim in the darkness of the blackout curtains.
I finally got my hand free of Nathaniel's warm, vanilla-scented hair. I lay on my side,
propped on my elbow, waiting for the machine to kick in and let us know whether it was the
police for me or the Furry Coalition hotline for Micah. Nathaniel, as a stripper, didn't get
emergency calls much. Just as well; I wasn't sure I wanted to know what a stripper emergency
call would be. The only ideas I could come up with were either silly or nefarious. Ten rings, and
the machine finally kicked on. Micah spoke over the sound of his own voice on the machine's
message. "Who set the machine on the second phone line to ten rings?"
"Me," Nathaniel said. "It seemed like a better idea when I did it."
We'd put in the second phone line because Micah was the main help for a hotline that new
wereanimals could call and get advice or a rescue. You know, I'm at a bar and I'm about to lose
control, come get me before I turn furry in public. It wasn't technically illegal to be a wereanimal,
but new ones sometimes lost control and ate someone before they came to their senses. They'd
probably be shot to death by the local police before they could be charged with murder. If the
police had silver bullets. If not... it could get very, very bad.
Micah understood the problems of the furred, because he was the local Nimir-Raj, their
leopard king.
There was a moment of breathing on the message, too fast, frantic. The sound made me sit
up in bed, letting the sheets pool into my lap. "Anita, Anita, this is Larry. You there?" He
