"Why did you dare Amy to kiss my boyfriend?"


He better have a good fucking explanation.


"It was truth or dare. Who cares about who kissed whom." Forrest replied, responding to a text in his cell.


"I do. Kevin is my boyfriend, how am I not supposed to care?"


"Um... 'cause it's a game." Forrest gave me one of his 'duh' looks.


I rolled my eyes. "You could have dared her to kiss someone else, like you."


"I didn't want to kiss her, she's too boring."


"Boring?! You had sex with her a few days ago!" I exclaimed, waving my hands angrily in the air.


"So... who cares?" I gazed at him incredulously


This is what I hated most about Forrest, girls didn't mean shit to him, even if they did give away their virginity to him. They were simply toys to him, he played with them for awhile until the newest gadget came out. It was a never-ending cycle.


"Bastard."


"That's me."


"One of these days you're going to regret it. Karma's gonna bite you in the ass and I'm not gonna be there to save you."


"Wouldn't want you to. I'd prefer a sexy model instead. And anyway, your man could have denied my dare if he wanted to, but he chose to kiss Amy so don't put your shit on me, it was his choice to cheat on you or not. Nevertheless don't be mad at him babe, if I were in his position I would have done the same thing. You and Amy are no comparison, your sister is way hotter."

If looks could kill Forrest would have been ten feet underground from the intense glare I was giving him. Sure I liked him, but that did not mean I couldn't be angered with him. The man was a dick head! Who the hell says that to a girl in their face?


I knew Amy was prettier than me, and I really hadn't cared before. Therefore I didn't bother to compare myself with her. Was I really that bad-looking? I may not look like a god, with these baggy clothes and hair in the same low ponytail each day, but I did look decent. Right?


Realizing where my thoughts were leading I punched Forrest on his stomach. Who was he to make me feel insecure?


"Damn, you hit like a man." Forrest announced. "Then again, I'm starting to believe you are one." Despite his claim Forrest didn't even flinch, it was as if I hadn't hit him at all.


Liar.


I felt as if I were about to cry. Everyone was staring at us, with me being the object of teasing. Forrest was still texting on his phone through the entire ordeal. This was his way of showing I was of no interest at all.


Before the situation could become worse I darted inside the school building, going into the bathroom so no one could see my tears fall. If I was going to be a weakling then I would let no one see this rare moment.


Kevin had cheated on me. By choice. It wasn't Amy's fault nor Forrest, but his. What was happening to this world? The boy who I thought would be different became the boy I could no longer trust. Or was Forrest lying?


No.


If there's one thing I knew best about Forrest is that he rarely lied, and even when he did it was small white lies to get him out of trouble. Forrest was the sort of guy who liked his thoughts to be heard regardless of the consequences.


So what should I do now? Break up with Kevin? Obviously. He was not the right guy for me. Forrest had warned me and I had mistaken it for jealousy. Jealousy! Out of all the things to blame Forrest I chose jealously.


Like as if he would be jealous of me. He made it quite clear he had no affections for me whatsoever. The man called me ugly for Pete's sake!


What has happened to him? Forrest had been mean and arrogant before, but never to me. I guess this is how it feels to be at the other end of the table. When I saw girls being dissed by Forrest's ways I felt bad for them, but it never went farther than that.


I didn't ask them how they felt, or tried to comfort them in any way, I just watched. It was because of this that I didn't fall for his irresistible charm-until now.


Having experienced it now I realize that witnessing it and experiencing it are two different things. When you're a witness all you do it watch, but when you experience the matter... things get far more complicated. You feel these emotions you never thought existed before, and you realize a person you thought important was far more than that.


When I watched Forrest's fangirls I just thought them as idiotic animals. Now I see that although their affection had no future they still had feelings. Sure they might have taken every opportunity to be with him-even gone as far as to stalk him-but that was because the moment Forrest had an affair with them what was before a desire transformed into a necessity.


Even if my feelings had grown more it did not mean I had become a blind bat, I knew Forrest's intentions and his games. The boy needed someone to show him he isn't all he's built up to be, that the world does not surround Forrest Take.


Out there in this world there is someone who could put him back in his place, and when that person comes his walls are going to come tumbling down. No longer will he be this invincible superman, the guy who gets anything he wants without so much as a shake of a finger.


There will be something-or better yet someone who he cannot have. I wonder who that person will be. Hmm... who knows.


It just might be me.


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