I Don't Beleive In Love But I Somehow Fell For A Rockstar (ON HOLD)

Love.

That's something that haunts me. I don't beleive in love. I never have and I'm pretty sure I never will beleive in that stupid four letter word that ruined my life. You are probably thinking I went through a pretty bad break up to think that but I didn't. My parent's got divorced when I was young and my brother is a player. I don't really think my parents ever loved each other. They married after knowing each other for two weeks. I think my dad did it from heart break from his first wife. I don't know about my mom but. I guess she was just stuck in a fantasy of her 26-year old mind. I grew up with them arguing and fighting and seeing innocent girls coming into my house and look at my bother with loving eyes. None of them I really like except from one. Her name was Rachel and she really liked him. She told me she has had a crush on him for two years and that teard me apart to see her so upset when he dumped her like crap. My brother didn't care but I did. I used to shout at him but because I was so much younger than him he didn't listen. Now that I am 18 I am free. Me and my best friend Emily have moved in toghether. I am away from the tourcher of living in two houses or should I say a house and an apartment. We have moved into an apartment in New York and we are both pretty happy.

Today is the fifth week we have been here and it is also the day that Emily is freaking out with excitment. Her favourite band are coming here. Well not here as in were we live. I mean in Centeral Park. There called 'Saved By The Light'. It's a pretty cool name but I don't like them as much as Emily likes them. I think there music is good but I'm not an obsessive fan. Okay time to get my lazy butt out of bed.

I walk into the kitchen and Emily is sitting there with earphones in humming away. She doesn't know I'm here. I tiptoed over to her and stood behind there.

"BOO!" I screamed. She jumped off the stool and screamed. I held my stomach and fell on the floor laughing. I looked up and saw a very angry Emily looking at me.

"What was that for!" She screamed. I laughed again and stood up.

"Hey, I am going to that concert with you today I need to do something." She sighed and giggled again it was just too funny.

"Stop laughing!" She demanded. I stopped immediatley even I know when too stop just by looking at her face.

"Okay, what time is the concert thing." I asked. She smiled.

"It's at 1. Hurry up and get dressed." I turned around and went back to my room to pick out my clothes. I guess I should be grateful Emily isn't dressing me.

I opened the door of my closet. I grabbed my black skinny jeans and 'My Chemical Romance' top. I guess it would be pretty fun too wear a band top to a concert of a completley diffirent band. I grabbed some clean underwear and went in for a shower.

****30 minutes later****

I wrapped the towel around my wet body. I opened the door and quickly ran too my room. I dried myself with the towel and put on my clean underwear. I pulled the skinny jeans up over my legs and pulled the top over my head. I went over too my closet again and got my black converses. I got my black eye liner and drew around my eyes. I looked in the mirror. My brown hair ended at my waist. My green eyes stood out more because of my black eye liner. My lips were full and pink. My pale skin was chalk like and I'm short and too skinny. My piercings are standing out on my face. My Angle Bites, my lip ring, my septum piercing and then on my left ear I have four hoop earings on the side of my ear. I looked down at my arm. Underneath my hoodie I have a tattoo, it's not a normal tatto. It's my sisters name, she committed suicide last year so I wanted her name on my arm too show her how much I love her. I lifted my sleeve up and stared at it. I can feel the tears in my eyes.

"Sanity! Are you ready yet?" Emily shouted. I heard her footsteps and I can see her from the corner of my eye. "Sanity, don't worry I know you miss her but you can't live life crying your eyes out over her. she wouldn't want you too live a life of more sadness. We moved here to get away from all that. We are leaving the past behind and starting a fresh new life." I nodded and pulled my sleeve back down.

"You're right. She wouldn't want that. Thank you so much Em." She smiled and pulled me into a hug. She let go and smiled.

"Come on I want to get down too the front." She smiled excitedley. Her eyes were filled with happieness. I giggled and she dragged me out my room.