I Was Born To Die[poem]

Death keeps running through my head
Like some lengthy song
Would it be a surprise to you
If one day I was suddenly gone
It’s always my death that gets planned out
In these sick and twisted dreams
But I know that it would be pointless
You wouldn’t care, it seems
I can tell that I’m asleep
But each death seems so real
Each time I scream, each time I bleed
I only wonder how you’d feel
I’m only living to watch over you
Or else I would have been dead long ago
But you’ll never see that’s why I’m still here
I refuse to let you know
But these thoughts are still clouding my mind
Should I live or should I die
I’d be better off without you near
But without you is only a lie
I may be weak, but I’m just strong enough
I’ll know that I’ll pull through
But I’ll never make it because of me
I live each day for you
Within just a few seconds
We could be torn apart
But that’s all you’ve wanted
Right from the start
If I were gone, would you miss me?
Because each day that I’m alive
I’m waiting for you to tell me no
So the winds will whisper “suicide”