Foolish Love by jyl







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Perfection - having all qualities. Everyone just loves to have it. But there's no such thing as perfect in this world. And even if there is, it easily fades away. I always thought I was perfect, having everyone around me say so. I was pretty, smart, sweet, nice. What else but nothing was missing? But sadly, it ended.

How could perfection turn into the opposite in just a matter of minutes? Even I couldn't understand. All I knew is that after that incident, I became the pale 12-year old girl that everyone avoided, fearing they would get what I had.

I didn't understand what was wrong with then, either. I would suddenly black out and when I woke up, I was in the clinic. There was even a time when I lost control of my body, and it was only then did I learn what I had. It was epilepsy.

During those times, I really needed the comfort of my parents. After all, I lost all my friends, and I had nobody else to turn to. But they weren't there for me. They were, instead, in another country, working their butts off to supposedly 'support' me. In return, they just hired a nurse to care for me.

For months, I would lock myself in my room, crying my eyes out for the hardships I had to endure. I even tried to kill myself twice. But somehow, the nurse would come in time to save me. And so, one day, I finally realized that I wouldn't get anything solved by being depressed. I didn't need other people to live my life. In fact, it was the people around me who were killing me inside.
I decided to lock everything inside of me, my feelings, and my thoughts. Coldness and numbness filled my heart.

Over time, people finally saw me as an outcast, a person not supposed to mingle with. And somehow, I didn't care at all. Because I lived on my own...

01
Would you believe me if I told you I was famous in school? Well, you'd better, because I really was. Everyday, I knew that people were talking about how scary I was, even calling me a witch. But whenever I walked down the hallway, they would stop with their gossiping, probably afraid that if I heard them, I might put a curse on them. It was pretty cool, actually. I was like a queen, though I was exactly the total opposite.

However, as I was walked down the hallway today, someone started walking towards me. I wasn't sure if he was new or not, because I never took the liberty to acknowledge the people in school anymore. But judging from what he was about to do, I had a feeling he was new.

"Hey! I'm new here and I'm just wondering if you can point me towards the school laboratory." The guy explained himself, giving me the satisfaction of being correct.

Unfortunately, I didn't give special treatment to new students, so I acted the way I usually acted towards people in our school. "I don't know. Go ask someone else." I remarked, continuing to walk.

He followed me. "How can you not know? You're a student here. Come on, you just need to lift your finger and point." He tried again.

"Leave me alone." I answered back, this time in a threatening tone. Usually, when I did that, people would start backing away from me. But he was different, or maybe just clueless. He continued to stay by my side and walk with me. "Aren't you afraid of me?!"

He shook my head. "Why would I be? You don't look like someone who can hurt a person, let alone a fly." He exclaimed with a grin. "So can you point me to the right direction now?"

I finally pointed the location of the laboratory. But after I did, I walked quicker than earlier. "Goodbye." I mumbled as I did.

I expected him to go his way at that point, but he didn't. "So tell me, what's your name?" he spoke again, keeping up with my speed.

Having little patience, I got really irritated with him so I ended up pushing him against the locker. "What's wrong with you? Can't you understand the words 'Leave me alone'?! Don't bother me again!" I exclaimed angrily before I left him with a surprised expression. I guessed he didn't think I could do something like that. That was really stupid of him. How could I survive in this world if I couldn't even protect myself?

As I continued to walk towards my first class, I noticed a girl approach the guy and helped him pick up his books. "I told she's really scary. You should've listened to my warning. Are you okay?" she asked him.

I couldn't help but laugh as he replied to her saying, "I'm fine. It was just a little push." I could've sworn his head hit the locker. He probably had a hard head so it didn't hurt him much. But even so, I was sure he learned his lesson - never bother Jung Ji Hyun.