Love Still Stands

Graded on what?

His kissing up wasn't really helping the fact that he still fucked my best friend. I understand he left me but it wasn't even 24 hours, hell it wasn't even 2. Does he even care about my feelings? Am I just a toy to him? I understand I am young but that doesn't mean anything, He said it himself I am adult like. That's what he loved about me, right? I get up and go down stairs, he was still cleaning up the kitchen. I walk outside to the mail box and grab the mail. Bills, a get well card, and a letter from......... My dad? I walk inside and set everything down but the letter. I sit on the couch and stare at the envelope. It was addressed to me. I open in it and stare at the one page letter.

"Dear Emma, I understand if you don't respond to this but the 4 years I have spent in hear have taken a toll on me. I realized I have done wrong and I realized I have hurt you and scared you. Watching me slaughter your sister was probably something you never wanted to see. I also know me raping wasn't a good idea either. I don't think saying sorry will help anything so I wont. I just want you to know I have put many thoughts into this and taken a lot of time out to think about it. I finally had the balls to write you this letter which should show something. I would really like to see you. I have both you and your mother on the list. I also have guest on there because I am sure you don't want to come alone. I am sure your mother will decline the offer but I would really like to see you. I do miss you and I am not getting out of here anytime soon so....  I am n the state pen just go through the main entrance and they will direct to where you need to go. I hope to see you .  Sincerely yours, Greg." I  just well I guess I am shocked.

"What's that Emma?" "A letter from my dad, He wants me to go see him." "Well are you?" "I think I should but at the same time I don't really know." He sits next to me and looks at the note. "I can go with you if you want" Quit kissing up David, Its not going to change the fact on what you did." He just looks at me. "I know, I am tying to be nice, not kiss up. I can leave if you want me to." I really didn't want him to go but at the same time I was still mad. "Like you said, you control your own life, if you want to leave the door is open." He just gets up and walks into the kitchen. I picked up my laptop to see if the state pen did Sunday hours. "8-7." Ok I think I can do this.

I end up taking David with me only because I didn't want to be alone with my father. I was driving up there just thinking about everything that has happened in the past month. I haven't talked to Snooks but she did text me apologizing. I didn't text her back. The deal with David, well I have no idea. I still had a strong feeling for him but the trust was completely gone. "You know I still love you right?" I just look at him. "Yea I do and I love you to but the trust is gone and I don't believe in a relationship with no trust. Trust is the main structure in a relationship." "I totally agree and that's why I am going to show you that you can trust me again, If you choose to be with me again." "Well I don't know about that yet."

We pull into the parking lot and get out. I look up to see a huge building with barbed wire, guards, spot lights, dogs, gates. You name it, it was there. We walk through a giant gate and into the secured building. We took everything out of our pockets and were given passes. We were patted down and checked well. I got eyed by a few men in there. I just smiled. We were taken into a waiting room and told that we would both be called into the room with in 15 minutes. "Are you ok Em?" "No but I am doing this out of the goodness of my heart." "Mrs.. Denaro, Mr. Harris?" Oh god. We stand up and I grab David's hand. We were lead into a room that was barely lit. We were told he was being brought down. My stomach felt like there were boxers fighting inside. I was scared and nervous. I just clenched onto David's hand under the table.

The door opens and two guards step in. Followed by them was a skinny man, black hair, blue eyes. He was pale and winkles filled his face. The orange jump suite was saggy on him. He kept his head down as he was being put in the room. The guards stood by the door as he sat down. He looked at me with dead eyes. "Hello Emma." "Hi." "Its nice to see you again." "I wish I could say  the same." "Who is this?" "This is my friend David, David this is Greg." They shake hands and I quickly grab David's hand again. "I am glad you came." "Yeah, I would have felt bad if I didn't." "I am guessing your mom declined the offer?" "Moms gone. She moved out with her friend or some guy, she came back and we got into a fight and she's gone now." "Oh so how are you getting by?" "Working and paying for my own stuff." "Oh well I am glad you have blossomed into the woman that you are." "I didn't really have a choice after they figured you out and mom was gone." He just looks down. "I am sorry ok. I really am. I know it doesn't fix anything but I still want you to know how bad I feel about everything."

"Do you really? Do you really feel bad about raping me every night and killing my only support. Only because she stepped in and asked you to stop. she was only 7 and she acted my age. She wanted it to stop. She was tired of seeing me in pain and trying to figure out how to get away from you and you shoot her. You killed a poor innocent girl. You should feel more then bad. I wish they would cut your dick off then feed it to you for dinner because you are a rotten bastard just like your wife, and the rest of your family that wouldn't even help me when I had cancer. Oh yeah you didn't know that did you? Yeah I suffered with it on my own. Snooks mom was the only one that helped me out and I even denied her half of the time. You tried to get with her but thank god she knew your evil ways. Thank god she knew enough to keep her daughter and son safe. She knew something was up just by the looks of me. Yet you don't care." I get up and walk over to the guards and they open the door. " Good bye Greg." I turn and walk out. I see David walk out as well. He stopped me. "You did the right thing you know." I just bury my head in him as he hugs me.

We walked through the door and I collapse on the couch. David had taken me to Golden Coral and I was stuffed. "Ughh I can never eat again." He laughs as he comes in the door. "You wimp you onle ate 4 plates." "You ate like 10. Fat ass." He laughs and sits next to me. I couldn't help but start to feel better about this situation. Now do I call Snooks and forgive her first or should I just wait a little bit more? There was a knock on my door. David gets up and answers it. I look up to see Snooks at the door with my weakness. "Banana splits." I just smile. She hands me one and I suddenly got my appetite back. "Ok I forgive both of you but like I said to David I need to build trust back up." They both agree and eat there ice cream. I felt calm and happy for once. I really just hope nothing else can go wrong.

I turn on the tv and turn on the news. "This just in, inmate Greg Denaro killed himself today in his cell, Police are investigating and we will tell more as it comes." I just stare at the TV. Snooks and David were shocked. "I will be back." Snooks gets up and leaves the house. I knew she was getting her mom. "Babe?" It was because of me. He killed himself because of me. "Its not your fault, I know what your thinking." My jaw dropped. I didn't know what else to do. This was just a shock. I hate the man but yet he's dead because of me. "Its my fault." "It is not. I think you actually made him realize what he did and he finally owned up to it." "I guess your right."  I get up and limp to the kitchen. I pull out some vodka and do a couple shots. " Drinking isn't going to solve anything." I turn around to see Cathy, Snooks mom. I run up to her and hug her and start crying. "Its my fault mom.' "Emma its not your fault ok. That bastard finally did what should have been done 5 years ago." She lets go and puts the vodka away.

I walk into the living room with tea for everyone. I sit down between Mom aka Cathy and David. Snooks was playing on the xbox and so was her little brother. I felt content for now but yet I still had a bad feeling in my stomach. Thoughts were racing in my head and I really didn't know what to do. I didn't want to turn the news back on to figure out the whole story.  I didn't want to find out if I had to plan a funeral, I didn't really care about that's as much. He is rotting in hell anyway. I just hope my sister is up in  heaven content with this because I really don't know how I feel.