Book 2: My Complicated Romance with Derek Hale (Teen Wolf Fan Fic)

Belle: Heavily Broken

(Previously: Belle goes to the game and makes up with Zan. Scott starts to shift during the game and Belle goes after him which is when Kristin shoots Belle with a trank gun. Belle asks Derek to train her and he agrees.)
I still can't believe my own sister shot me with a trank gun, a freaking trank gun! What the hell? The trank gun was the only thing protecting Kristin whereas I'm the one that can protect myself without weapons. I should have been allowed to help.
I'm not a child
Knock, knock, knock. I sit up in my bed and pause the movie The Covenant. It's kind of old now but I will never get sick of it, not even in 20 years' time.
"Come in."
"Hey." I hear Scott's voice before I see his face as he opens the door and steps into my room. I can't help but stare at him in shock. Scott hasn't visited me since Alison blew into town, not even once.
Why is he here now? He should be with his perfect, stupid girlfriend Alison Argent. I even hate saying her name. No! Don't even bother wasting your thoughts on her. Alison is not worth it!
"What are you doing here?" I ask as I subtly fix my hair. Why am I being an idiot? Scott doesn't care about my hair. He only cares about Alison. Why can't I stop caring about Scott in a more than friend's way?
I'm pathetic. No I'm over it. I'm over Scott. No more crush and no more pining over Scott. I can't do it anymore.
"I came to see you, why else would I be here?" Scott asks as he sits at the end of my bed.
"Okay but why? I thought you would be with Alison. Why aren't you with Alison?"
Scott is the very last person I'd expected to walk through my door, especially after sunset.
"I don't want Alison." Scott smiles seductively as he starts to walk towards me and I can't help but feel confused.
Is this really happening? Maybe Scott is starting to have doubts about Alison. I don't blame him since her father is a hunter. Just being friends with Alison is risky, and perusing a relationship with her will no doubt lead to Scott's demise.
Maybe Scott is finally realising I'm the one for him, not Alison but me.
"Aren't you two dating or something?" I ask as Scott reaches the end of my bed.
He pauses before he answers my question, "Or something." Scott smirks and the end of bed dips under his weight.
My pulse starts to race dramatically and I feel my breath get caught in my chest. Is this the moment where Scott tells me he doesn't want to be with Alison anymore, and that he wants to be with me instead.
"Don't look so shocked Belle," Scott smirks as he inches closer towards me. I still can't believe this is happening.
Breathe Belle . . . Breathe!
"I'm not shocked I just thought you only cared about Alison," I reply as I try to calm my frantic nerves. Scott is sitting right in front of me, finally it's going to happen. We are going to be together.
I can't help but smile at the thought as Scott leans forward and I follow his lead. This time it's going to be perfect unlike last time when I kissed Scott in the woods. We were searching for the other half of the body. It's also the night Scott got bitten by the alpha.
"I do care about Alison but there is no future with her. You and me Belle, we're the same. It's you that I want to be with." Scott replies before he presses his lips against mine, and I return the sweet kiss.
As I inhale Scott's amazing scent I realise that my feelings are never going to change. I'm always going to love Scott no matter what happens between us. The realisation leaves me feeling disappointed, and I don't understand why.
"Does Alison know you two are over?" I ask after I pull my lips away from Scott's. I don't know how I manage it when all I want to do is keep kissing him, and to hold him in my arms but I also don't want to be that girl again. The one hooking up with another girl's boyfriend, no matter how much I hate Alison I know she doesn't deserve the betrayal.
Alison is a nice person, and my only grudge against her is the fact that Scott started ignoring me as soon as Alison moved to Beacon Hills. I know it's silly, hating a person I don't even know but I can't help it.
I'm jealous of Alison Argent. At least I was until Scott decided to pick me, and leave Alison behind.
"She will." Scott replies as he pulls me closer to him, and starts placing small kisses down the side of my neck.
The tingles start moving all around my body and my eyes instantly become heavy. It's so relaxing that I can barely keep my eyes open.
"Wait you have to end it with Alison first." I somehow manage to speak. I don't want Scott to leave or stop but I can't make out with a guy who already has a girlfriend. Jackson is the only exception because of how much I despise Lydia, but Alison is nice and nothing like Lydia.
As much as I want to keep kissing Scott I can't. I won't.
Scott sighs in frustration before he sits back and leans on his elbows, "Why do you keep bringing Alison up?"
"Maybe because she is your girlfriend."
"We've only kissed once that doesn't automatically make her my girlfriend. You of all people know that," Scott replies although there's something cruel shining in his eyes and I realise he is talking about the time I kissed him.
But what does that even mean?
"What's that meant to mean?" I ask knowing the confusion is clearly written all over my face. Is Scott deliberately trying to hurt me? If so why?
What is going on?
Within the blink of an eye something has changed. Scott isn't Scott anymore. His usual glowing brown eyes are dark and menacing and his adorable smile is sinister and is sending the bad kind of chills up and down my spine.
"How does it feel loving someone who is never going to love you back?" Scott asks and I can't believe the sudden change in Scott. One minute he wants to be with me and is kissing me and the next he is taunting me.
What the hell!?
"Why are you acting like this?" I ask as I try to hold back the tears. This isn't Scott, it can't be.
Scott is kind, caring and sweet. This Scott is an imposter.
"Because you're pathetic Belle, why would I like you?"
The words sting like a slap in the face, and I can't hold back the few tears that manage to escape and slide down my face. Scott is being a dick and I know I should just ignore Scott all together but I can't.
I care about what Scott thinks of me, always have and always will.
"Just stop it," I try not to yell but the pain is too much. I felt like I'm suffocating.
"I haven't even started yet," Scott smirks as he quickly stands on the bed and jumps on the floor.
I don't move, instead I just watch as the door opens and Alison appears with a smug smile on her face. Why is she here? Is this a game to them? Maybe it's their screwed up version of foreplay.
Immediately I wipe the tears from my cheeks as Alison walks over to Scott. I want to tell them to both go to hell, and to get iut of my room but nothing comes out of my mouth.
"Hey Belle what's the matter you look upset?" Alison smirks, and I struggle to fight back the tears.
I still don't understand.
Both Scott and Alison laugh before they share a passionate kiss which cuts through my heart like a knife. As I close my eyes I pray that this is all just a dream well more like a nightmare. It has to be.
The environment suddenly changes and as I open my eyes I find myself standing on my feet in the middle of the school corridor. The worst part is that I'm not alone. The lights are shining down on my classmates who are staring at me emotionless.
I spot Zan and Isaac first at the start of the line to my left while Jackson and Lydia are at the front of the line to the right. I feel like a caged animal being put on display and I don't like it, not in the slightest.
This is definitely dream. I'm pretty sure werewolves don't have the power to teleport, my mother would have told me otherwise.
"What?" I yell frustrated and angry. They are just staring at me like I'm some kind of freak. Is this the part where they run me out of town? Shouldn't they have pitch forks and torches? This is crazy.
"You're a freak." Jackson scoffs first finally breaking the silence.
"Freak, freak, freak . . ." Lydia starts chanting and the rest of them join in apart from Isaac and Zan who are still staring at me.
Surely they won't join in?
The chanting starts getting louder and louder and I feel the sadness start to wrap around me like a blanket. Am I foolish to think that nothing has to change, and that I can still be a normal teenage girl with friends?
"Jackson is finally right about something," I hear Isaac speak and the tears instantly spring forward threatening to fall down my face.
No not Isaac too, he didn't even freak out when he saw me shift for the first time. He was caring and understanding so why is he agreeing with Jackson?
"I can't be friends with a freak," Zan speaks next, and I quickly wipe away the fallen tears as I run down the hallway trying my hardest to ignore the chanting. It's kind of typical that just when I am starting to think my life isn't so bad this happens.
My eyes snap open and I sigh in relief.
It's finally over but now I'm left with the chanting as it echoes in my thoughts. The dream felt so real . . . Too real.
Being a werewolf scares the crap out of me, and it does make me feel like an outsider but at the same time I love the perks, and I know with time I will be able to control myself. I will be myself again.
"I'm not a freak!" I mumble to myself although I notice the confidence lacking in my voice as I think back to the dream.
Already I'm trying to pretend the dream doesn't mean anything and that it is wrong. I don't want to be stuck loving Scott anymore, but what if my dream is right? What if my feelings are never going to change?
I don't want to be in love with Scott anymore, it hurts too much. My heart is breaking and I don't know what to do.

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