My Story

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I've been asking people to tell me their stories and to allow me to share them. In return, I'm going to share mine.

There was a time that I was so depressed it was unbearable. My boyfriend had dumped me and it caused me to snap. The reason he gave me for breaking up with me was because he didn't have time for me. I spiraled farther and farther into depression. I was so lost in my own mind, it was like I wasn't even part if the world around me. I could hear voices and it terrified me. I was so afraid to tell anyone because I didn't want them to think I was crazy. I thought I was crazy. The thing was, it was my own voice I heard. But it was my own voice saying different things at the same time. It was overwhelming. Hearing myself tell me to kill myself, that I was stupid to think anyone could love me, I was worthless. Then there was his voice. Sometimes it would drown the others out. I could just hear him saying he loved me and all the other things he told me while we were dating. I'd curl up wherever I was and tell myself over and over again that I'd never hear him tell me these things again. Then a week or so after we broke up, he had a new girlfriend. That's when his voice joined the others in laughing at me and telling me I was stupid. I don't know how many times I considered suicide or the different ways I could do it

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