Everything has changed....and I’m not just talking about the life I’ve been bound to without my mother. My priorities, my responsibilities.
Most people my age are out having fun without a care in the world...me I’ve been bound to eternal life; a life without aging, a life watching the people, I love slowly fade away...
Is a curse or a blessing? Well, I’m still working that out. How did that happen? I have no clue in the world all I know is that I was a survivor but my mother, my best friend was not.
It happened to be on the day of the new moon, my mother and I were getting ready to go to the one time viewing at the new theatre, and somehow my mother happened to get hold of the rare tickets for her 42nd birthday. As we were ready to go my mother’s beautiful green eyes were sparkling with pure excitement. My mother loved to live life to the full and wanted the same for me. Some say I was spoilt, whereas mother called it a ‘comfortable ‘upbringing. But now when I look back I agree I was spoilt, I lived a life of luxury and took it all for granted something I regret so much now, if I could go back and change things I would. If I could tell my mum I was sorry for how I treated her too I would without a single doubt. But there’s no point in saying ‘if’ because I gotta face the facts. I can’t change what’s in the past. I can’t turn back time...no matter how hard I wish at night.
When we got into the car that evening I complained that my shade of lipstick was to dark that I looked horrible...Mothers turned round to say; you’re beautiful just the way you are, I love you Violet, I thought like that when I was young, but now I regret every breath I every wasted complaining about how I looked when you get older you’ll realise too that looks mean nothing it’s the beauty on the inside that counts.
Those were the last words that ever came out of her natural red lips, and trust me those words weren’t wasted they are the words I think of before I go to sleep at night. I look back and think of how vain I was back then and hate the person I was. The person I am no longer...