My Last Goodbye:Dedicated to nephew Janathan Angel Alize Delgado

As tears begin to roll down my face I try not to brake down.

though i wasn't there my last goodbye shall be with you underground.

Anger fills my heart,my tears brake my knees,because now you cannot laugh your body rest in peace.

This is my last goodbye and I want to make it special,i want you to know that 

God has truly sent you.

When i heard the news i couldn't speak,my eyes broke out my heart turned weak.

i closed my eyes, i saw you laugh; my dreams were gone they crashed in half.

I've asked for many things in life, but now ill only ask for one.The chance and oppurtuniity to see you laugh and run.

Ive cried for many things but now ill only cry for one, the fact that mom and dad cant raise their baby son.

The lie about what doesn't kill you makes you strong,the truth is without you i cant keep on going on.

I miss you Janathan im dying alive, but i promise you will always be a part of life.

I remember that 1st ultrasound,it was me your dad and mom.

That happiness that i felt is now completely gone.

Your little hands and your pretty little eyes,seeing you once more,god it must be nice.

Just know that as I write this letter my heart brakes in two,

this is my last goodbye dedicated just for you.

knowing you were coming filled my heart with joy,but now what to do with your blanket and your toy.

when you were 3 months old i promised you a walk,I promised we would laugh and paint the street with chalk.

Take you to the park and watch you run away,help you draw a picture,and squeeze a chunk of clay.

Seeing you take the first steps ever,snap the picture you,mom,dad together.

I know I'm a little crazy,but you would of like me allot. I hold your picture in my hand the last thing that I got.

I still don't get it why you had to die,you would of been happy here.But I guess you're better in the sky.

Every time I see your picture,my eyes fill with fire. But it makes me smile a little at the thought of you flying higher.

Little Jaad I just want to let you know, that even though its my last goodbye,I'm never letting go.

You live inside my heart,you rest upon Gods grace,and when we look to heaven we'll see your smiling face.

Though right now it hurts later we'll be okay. God thank you for this blessing Janathan Angel Alize.

                     -may your sinless soul rest in peace,let the time you were alive change the lives of those who live,and to the ones that cant find relief i say, "Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.  James 5: 16