it my first story...please tell me what you think xxx
Meera (Love4twilightxx)
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I have always felt like I am alone! No matter what I do, it would and still will get ignored and unnoticed. It's mainly my dad's side of the family that make me feel like this.
This all started a couple of years ago; when all of a sudden my cousins just stopped talking to me. This is all because of people that think they are in the family, but they are NOT family!
It's unfair how I always get pushed aside when they come round. One day I got so fed up with it all that I just snapped at them. Once I snapped at them it turned out to be a full blown out argument, what had made it worse was the fact that it was in front of the whole family that this happened. No one had dared to get involved because they knew that they would just regret it, because they also knew that I had a right to have a go at them. It had turned from a confrontation to a verbally abusive and heated argument. This was the day that our relationship ended as brothers and sister - because that was what we were like, more brother and sister rather than cousins - ended. They had always said that they would always be there to protect me and be there for me no matter what they are doing, who they are with or where they we with. But that was all a LIE!
This was the first day that I realised that I was truly Alone and that it would always be like that in this family.
I had felt Alone before this, and it was this that made me feel like this in the first place. It was in 2005 when I first met my soon to be aunt who was to be married to my mums brother. After the religious engagement and the party afterwards, everything got worse!
One day I was talking to a couple of my friends on MSN, when an invite to join a conversation appeared. It was to talk to her, so I thought it was to patch everything up - I was only doing this for my uncle because he means so much to me - but what I didn't actually realise was that it was 'a mistake' and it was between herself and her cousins to invite me to join and in fact they were inviting another girl called Meera, who I found was there cousin. I had found out that in that conversation they were talking about ME! So I thought lets see what they say about me like is it good or bad, but don't I regret it! It was horrible and absolutely spiteful!!
In the conversation she talks about with her family about how much she hates me and if that wasn't enough she goes on about how I will never be able to spend any time with my uncle (like we used to) and that she would break the relationship that we used to have...and she succeeded. She had also said within the conversation that the only nieces and/or nephews that my uncle would have would be those she would approve of meaning that they would only be from her side of the family. This was when I ad reached breaking point because I got so angry... that I decided it was time to say something.
I had typed in as my first bit to my rant, "Stop acting so bloody childish and learn how to act your age. Y do u want to make my life f****** hell for? What the hell have I done 2 u?"
To that she simply replied "u was born!" This was when I had just ran out of the house crying not bothering with telling anyone where I was going, I had got onto a train to East London, and just went to my house there. When my parents finally had figured out why I ran out like that with no explanation they went absolutely ballistic!
She was the reason y I was so depressed and ran away to London!
After a couple of days from staying there, I decided it was time to come back. When I entered the house, I was not shouted at (thankfully!) because they understood why I had gone like I had and just need some space and time alone.
