This Love Was Never Meant To Be (Ryan Seaman Love Story)

Chapter 15: The Feels!

Chapter 15: The Feels!

RYAN'S POV

"Ryan!" Jen yelled, coming out of our room. "Why are there boxes and a moving truck outside?"

"Because I want you gone."

"What?" She asked, dropping the box in her hands.

"I want you out of my apartment." I said, standing up and pointing at the door.

"B-But Ry! O-Our ch-" She placed her hands on her flat as fuck stoumach.

"Bull fucking shit." I interupted her. "You're nothing but a filthy liar Jen! How could you fucking lie about being pregnant!"

"I-I didn't want to lose you!" She sobbed. I sighed and brought her in for a hug, damn my soft side.

"I'm sorry Jen, it has to be done. I need to move on." She looked up at me.

"It's another girl, isn't it?" She cried. I sighed and nodded.

"Yes Jen, I'm sorry but I'm still in love with my ex." She let a single tear roll down her cheek. "I'm sorry Jen, but it's over between us." I said, kissing her one last time.

"Really?" She asked and I nodded. I helped her pack up her stuff and load it into the truck. I walked back to my apartment and lay down on the couch, covering my face with my hands.

"UGH!" I groaned, squeezing my eyes shut tight. I ended up crying myself to sleep.

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT!" Alex screamed.

"Alex! Please, hear me out." I begged.

"Go on." She said simply, crossing her arms over her chest.

"I'm so sorry I reacted like that. It's just, I haven't see you in a really long time and I missed you Alex and..." I stopped before grabbing his chin and kissing her deeply and passionatley. She eventually gave into the kiss and I broke away after what seemed like forever. "And I am still deeply in love with you." I finished. She smiled and hugged me. "Here." I said, offering her my jacket.

I shot up, pushing the hair out of my face and trying to catch my breath. I sighed and ran my hands through my hair. What the fuck was that about. I fell back asleep and started to dream again. Each time I would go back to sleep, I would dream about that kiss when I saw Alex again or when we were dating in high school.

"I do not love Alex." I chanted to myself. "Alex has Ron and is happy, I do not love Alex." I decided to call it a night and go to bed, no luck. I kept dreaming and waking up. The next morning, I grabbed my phone. "Alex, meet me at Starbucks in ten." I told her once she answered. She agreed and I sighed, running my hands through my hair and rubbing my eyes. I took a quick shower and pulled on some boxers, blow drying my hair. I pulled on some clothes before grabbing my wallet, keys and phone and heading down to my car. I drove to Starbucks and walked in to see her sitting there, sipping her coffee. I ordered mine and sat down across from her, causing her to look up and smile at me.

"So, what's up Ryan?" She asked sweetly. I sighed and bit my lip.

"I-I have something to tell you, and it's not going to be easy." She nodded for me to go on. "I know you're dating Ron but, I-I think I'm still in love with you." Her eyes widened as she spit her coffee back into her cup.

"Y-You think?" I nodded.

"Look, I broke up with Jen and kicked her out of my house yesterday. She lied about being pregnant." I explained and she nodded. "I then was so upset, so I went to sleep a-and I dreamed... about you... and me. I was reliving our kiss when we saw each other again a couple months ago. I woke up and decided to go back to sleep, Everytime, I would dream about that kiss or when we were dating in high school. I even tried to convince myself that I didn't love you, that you were with my best friend, but it didn't work. I'm so so sorry about this Alex, I just had to get it off my chest." She just stared at me.

"I-I just... I don't know what to say Ryan." She said, dragging her fingers through her hair. "I'm sorry Ryan, I don't know what I feel towards you." I sighed.

"It's okay Alex, just, call me when you do." I said with a small smile, standing up and leaving the shop.

ALEX'S POV

I stayed in the shop for a good ten minutes before deciding to leave myself. I thought long and hard about what Ryan said and confirmed that I really didn't know my feelings for him. I got back to Ron's apartment and saw him sitting on the couch, engrossed in an episode of Spongebob.

"Hey Alex!" Ron greeted with a wave, pausing the TV to look at me.

"Hey." I said back, bitting my lip. He patted the spot on the couch next to him and I reluctantly sat down. He pulled me to him and I cuddled into his body awkwardly. Ron picked my head up and pecked my lips before returning back to the show. After about ten minutes like that, Ron paused the TV again and sighed.

"Alex." He said and I looked up at him. He sighed again and stood up, pacing before sitting back down. "I-Is there anything on your mind?" I sighed and bit my lip, nodding and trying to hold back the tears.

"I just don't know anymore Ron." I cried, letting the tears fall from my eyes. He forced my head up and wiped the tears away.

"What don't you know Alex?"

"I-I don't know about us." I sighed, letting out heavy sobs. "I-I talked to Ryan today and he said he still had strong feelings for me and he broke up with Jen and... I just don't know anymore Ron. I don't even know how I feel about Ryan." I sighed, wiping my eyes. "I-I think we need to break up." I sniffled, looking up at him.

"I figured." He shrugged.

"I'll just find my own place and try to make a decison." I said and he nodded, opening his arms for a hug. I fell into his open arms wrapping mine tightly around him and sobbing loudly into his chest. He wrapped his arms around me tightly and stroked my hair, planting kisses on my head.

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