1. Verdict

"are you okay?"
she always was so observant. I really wish she was the kind of mother ignored such behavior or apperarance. When i think of it, is there a mother like that at all. i would rather have a mother that cares then who ignores me, well at times like this.
"i am fine mom"i grouned.
I knew i was lieing to her face. but would really be better to say, mom i keep haveing dreams of things that happen. This happened alot recently. First i thought that it was a coincedence. After several things in a row, the things kept coming true. Would it make her happy to tell her daughter was going crazy for some apparent reason.I would not do that to her.
" Cecilia, come on i know somethings up. You can tell me." I could hear the destress in her voice.
I wish i could tell her. She would not understand. no one would.
" No mom nothings wrong, just please drop it." I not much of a liar. i knew she knew that i was liying but.. but nothing i had to try, todo my best.
i was sure she would not let this go but i know i could escape the confrontation now. I could not postpone it much longer. But i know this was not the right time.
I left. needed to go. I had no were to go i thought. surtuntly not my room i would try my best ignoring sleeping. Right when i would hit the pillow i would sink into a deep sleep. Full of flashes, glimpses of things to come. Knowing that before all of this my life life was not as... there is no word really for it. Except for crazy.
I stood there at the door. stareing at it. Was this my verdict, to have no were to go. No really close enough friend to go to.
I knew if i wanted to ovode this talk i could only go to my room.I left the room. Not looking back.
" Night Mom " Hope you sleep better then i do. i knew that she would. Who could stop me from worring. no one. no one cared enough.
" See you tomorrow sleep tight love y- "
" Love you too mom. "
I did love her. i knew she loved me. for now.

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This was like no other vision i ever had. Much more clearer. Much more definition. Like my visions before were like watch through heavly tinted glass. Blurry. THough this was the first dream i doubted was going to happen. It was also the time i wish i could watch longer. I wish i could control my.. curse. it is not a rare occassion that i find no words to explain my visions. It happens quite often since most are extraodinary. At the time they did at least. Compared to this, they looked like carnival tricks. No more significant then a dream.
I again find myself at astrain of words. I thought i was actualy dreaming. There was a group of... loss of words again. Extra ordinary beings. They all surrounded something. There looked like there 5 of them. I don't find myself able to describe them in a couple of sentences. to much to describe. They were beautiful but, not away people would see. Sane people at least.
I saw something different that to me was beautiful. Only i feel i could see the beauty in them. Normal eyes could not coprehend it. they all seemed to be saying something together. It was quiter then a wisper. Again to low that i don't think i should have been able to hear. Maybe there was more to my ... gift then i thought.
There was something i did notice. Actually it was more noticable then any thing else. There eyes they were black. Looking into them was like looking down a hole.A deep trench in the ocean. never ending , it could go on forever. It was what some people found fritening. To me exalerating.
As i focused I saw they were in my room. THey just stood there tried to see what was on my bed. Though i already knew. Me. Cecilia Rose McKay. I thought why such creatures were circleing around me. Whispering. I only heard the beatifulest on say
" It's her." he said without looking away from me. His face was suprised, and anxious. " I told you we would find her here". he said to the girl next to him. Her face differed from his. She was in pain. Not phsyical but mental pain. She was different, though then the others they all looked relaxed except for him. Thats all i would be calling him for now. I was sure how i felt about him he seemed very familiar. Not like i saw him before but like we were together once. Friends maybe, or more then that i was uncertan. Any way all i can see is the future not the past.
All of a sudden Though i was still in my vision i woke up they looked at me for a minite. The one that looked older then the rest smiled and simply said " hello."