Who Makes The Cut? (1) [Crys]

You probably found this under Horror expecting something involving Zombies, Aliens, Vampires, or Monsters. You thought wrong, except for monsters, this story is about a monster, but not one that hides in your room. This monster is much, much more serious.

This is a non fiction book but this is also slightly fictional in the fact that the people's names, ages, and locations and all other true facts that might make someone uncomfortable have been removed from this "book".

If you read on, even though  you were just introduced to the most boring beginning ever. Congratulations, you're about to learn about a real monster, self-mutilation.

Self-Mutilitation (or self-harm) is a serious issue. I'm not going to slap you with statistics and facts, I'm going to slap you with the reality that you're currently reading something written by a girl who still has lines left on her ankles and thighs from Cutting. I quit around a month ago, it was my New Year's Resolution, but I broke it. After I broke it I've found it harder and harder to harm myself. I believe this to be because I proved to myself that I can quit, for a little while at least, so now I feel reluctant when I do cut, because I know I can do better.

Now this book is going to be written by two people. Me (Crys, short for Crystal) and Ally.

Ally is one of my best friends, and a fellow self mutilator. She's my online friend, who I have never met and probably wont.

For our privacy, these are not our real names. And for your own safety, I highly advise you to not turn to self harm in any time of your life, I know I sound hypocritical, but you'll have a hard time quitting.

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The first thing I'd like to talk about, is reasons. You don't have to be dirt poor with an alcoholic father and a drugged up mom to have a feeling to self mutilate. I live in a decent sized house, around 2,200 square foot, and am part of a middle class family that owns two cars, a fairly nice moterhome, and goes on vacations in our moterhome at least once a month. If I want an electronic item my well-off for being retired Grandparent's are more than happy to pay. I am in a few 4-H clubs, including Cooking, Outdoors, and Speech. I'm also homeschooled, so I do not often have problems with bullying unless it's at my homeschool PE, where we go swimming in an indoor pool and play tennis with overpriced racquet's. I have ten or so friends, who are amazing people that I love very much. So why would I hurt myself? As it seems I have a perfect American life that all the immigrants dream of for their children, I should have no reason to be upset.

But did you realize how I didn' t mention my parents? Did you? Well, realize it. Most people have issues with their parents, we all know. But when your mother turns on you and thinks that you're a useless brat who's spoiled and dumb, which is most likely true (but she could at least say it more nicely!). Well, then it all falls to pieces.  My dad is great, but he won't stand up for me in front of my mom, who demand I be perfect. I don't blame him, when she yells at him then I don't stand up for him either. I know a friend in real life who cuts because of her mother also. If you're a mom with a troubled kid reading this... please make sure to choose your words carefully, you never know what little word can set them off.

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You'll be learning a little bit each upload about cutters.

People are so easy to judge them. When in fact if 1 in 5 girls cut, you need to think about it like this, 1 in 5 of your friends could hurt themselves.

Thinking about someone you know doing it makes it more realistic

I encourage you to still read this, chapter for chapter. It's how we (ally & i) feel, and why we do it. She's rich, and I'm normal. It prooves that anyone can hurt themselves with good reason, not just people who get phsycially abused or bullied at school.