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To any fans I have left I am sorry. This is not a chapter but please don't skip through it! I know you will anyways but it's REALLY important to me for you to read this.

You guys have been the best. When I first started writing on Wattpad I was that loser girl in school that felt out of place. I never felt like I ever fit and I was the most insecure person. I went to a private school but I have learning and muscle disabilities so I had nothing to call my own. I would to come home crying and cried till I went to sleep. YOU all gave me something to look forward.

None of you knew what I went through while I was writing this. I almost lost one of my siblings to a life-threatening disease, my dad lost his job, and we lost our house. During all this and still today I became the rock that held my family together. I was always smiling and look on the bright side. (I would spend my afternoons watching Arthur with my dad because when I was younger I said that I wished he didn't have to work so we could it together).

But as the rock I needed something keep me holding myself together that's where the story came in. I didn't think I would ever have people read it, I was just letting my mind wonder. Then I searched Justin Bieber on Wattpad and it came up first. A smile came on my face but this smile was actual real. This CHANGED me for the better.

Here's where the TRUTH comes in I never have like Justin Bieber. In fact everyone I know who knows him, says he really a jerk. I just thought he was a good main character. I think deep down I wrote about him becuase I felt a connection to him, we both had to grow up too fast and were blamed for our actions becuase of past event we could not control. If you meet me in real life and one of his song comes on I'll probably not listen to it. But he in my story has made me met some great Wattpad friends. 

I actually sat by Christian Beadles while taking the ACT and I could not help but to laugh. It was funny that I spent over a year writing about this character  then there he was in the flesh and he was different. Of course, we had both changed; Christian did not consider himself famous anymore and was not friends with Justin, while I felt like I had meaning again. I chose my pen name, Jodie because I was almost named that and banks because it was the family at my school who seemed perfect. The family I desperately wanted to have instead of mine which was crumbling into pieces.

But I have to grow up just like the rest of us. I'm sorry that I have moved on. Honestly, I will never stop checking this story and responding to the friends I am still making today. Truth being most people have already forgotten about this story and for the rest of us this will be a distance memory in our minds later in life. Truth being ONLY one person knows who I really am, a old friend who has probably forgotten about this. I would love to meet some of y'all if you live in Atlanta. I sometimes think it would crazy if my friend read this or someone who goes to my school.

But you and me may see each other on the street and not even smile at each other. Just two strangers who don't know they are really best friends.

I am sorry that I am going to fail you all by not finishing my stories. I now have a Chronic Illness that has left me so impaired that I barley going to school, let alone writing. In fact it breaks my heart writing this but it's time.

So I am going to say it one last time just for the kicks...

Comment, Fan, Vote, Etc.

<3 Jodie Banks 

Wait that does not feel right anymore, we are all more connected than that. I cannot sign off like that. Here is how I will do it, 

Thanks for all the comments, fans, votes, love, etc. 

<3 Jen C. (My real name)

Ps I am so appreciative of all of you. I thank y'all so much and I LOVE y'all too. YOU each individually mean the world to me! Never hesitant to contact me over anything, and everything. I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE TO TALK, even if you just want to tell me a stupid joke. 

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