I was pretending I was over him for the sake of Mark, his bredrins and mine. He didn't even jam with them anymore but I suspected it was when I was around that he didn't come. They would stop talking when I came in the room and I'd come to clock they were talking about him and didn't want me to hear. I knew he hadn't been with anyone but I knew he'd been fucking bare chicks because I just knew... it was always me.
It had been a month and he was still in my head... I'd seen him once or twice and I'd always hide. Every time I saw him he was with a different girl and that hurt me. He'd moved on and I needed to as well. I was in the canteen at college when breaking news came through. He was turning 19 and wanted was having a party. I was indirectly invited. I weren't going.
"So you going to Strapz's ting?" Belinda asked me.
"Nope...I got bare work to do" I replied lying.
"You chat shit!" she said. I laughed.
"Aint you still over him?" she asked.
"I am!" I lied.
"Hmm, prove it..."
"Maybe I'll go..." I replied getting on the bus. I needed Armani! I went over to his house and knocked. A couple of minutes later he came almost naked.
"Ar sorry, I'll come back another time your umm busy" I said. He laughed then I think he clocked the tears in my eyes.
"Nah Lee come in..." he said dragging me in his yard.
"Stay here yeah. One minute yeh?" he asked and I nodded. He went back upstairs and I slept on his sofa. I woke up to find him staring at me with some worried look.
"WHAT?" I asked.
"You've been saying his name in your sleep...you keep saying sorry and how you love him" he said.
"Do I?" I asked sitting up yawning. He nodded.
"Armz! I dunno what to do! I'm so fucking not over him! I love him so much but I know we can't be together!"
"Why does what his family think of you piss you off?"
"Because they are his fam!" I said.
"I don't want to break up a family" I said.
"Anyway I weren't good enough for him..."
"Oi look at me." I did.
"Don't EVER say that yeh? No one is EVER good enough for you! Not the other way round! Even I used to like you I aint gonna lie...and you know that! Liam, your beautiful inside and out" he said.
"I don't feel like it" I muttered folding my arms.
"Aww baby!" he said hugging me.
"I love you loads Armz!" I said.
"Thanks for being there"
"Its nuffin...I love you too..." he said.
"So who were you with?" I asked.
"One chick from college" he said grinning.
"Was she good?" I asked randomly. He nodded.
"My back is aching that's how good she was." He said and I laughed.
A few minutes later.
"Uh yeah, harder Liam."
"Which way? That way?" I asked.
"Yeah...up a bit...ahhh shit! That's the spot!"
"Yes!" he said.
No we weren't having sex. I was stepping on his back. This continued for some time and I decided to go home.
"So you gonna go to his ting?" Armz asked. I shrugged.
"Are you going?" I asked. He nodded.
"How come? He hates you!"
"Not since I helped him out with suttin"
"I don't even wanna know!" I said putting up my arms.
"I wouldn't even tell you" he replied smiling at me.
"Armz your sexy bruv" I said.
"Don't ask like you don't know"
"Nah...its just coming from you...jheeze...I must be sexy for you to admit it!" he said getting happy. I laughed.